see this writing in a diary was a bad idea because now it just got me thinking about him, thinking about him and wanting him. you see, i go through weird phases through the days. Phases where i feel like im glad i broke up wiht him cuz if i hadnt id be stuck in a dead end relationship with someone who doesnt truly care about me like i did for him, but then theres that other phase the one where i feel like crying because i want him back NOW! no one gets it whenever i'll tell andrea or josie or fer that matter anyone they always say what are u talking about he treated u like shyt he was an asshole blah blah blah. the truth of the matter is i dont care i really dont care. what i do care about were those time when he was treating me good and acting like he cared, and maybe it was acting and he really didnt care but i still dont care if that was the matter becase the way he acted then he could of fooled god himself. i miss him now and i will prolly hate him tomorrow...but i cant keep going like this its been two weeks tomorrow and its getting easier but my feelings arent changing and i dont know what to do. one minute i fuckin hate him the next i love him whats a gurl to do when shes still carin so much bout her ex who cared so little about her?...anyone?....