"Why are you scared to dream of God When it's salvation that you want?" I really do wonder about my answer to that question. In some ways, I wonder if I really do want salvation. Maybe I don't mind the devestation in my life, or maybe there isn't any to mind. Can you really long for salvation if you have nothing to be saved from other than some silly disorders that are only in your head? But then really, why don't I believe in god? I don't mean that in the 'because it so obviously doesn't exist' sense, I mean that why don't I believe anyway? I mean sure there is scientific evidence and all that, but at least I could pretend I believed, so that it would feel like there was a greater power to long for, and that there really is something more than this measly existence that we all share. I wonder. Religion is quite selfish, really. Christians (I only use them as an example because the majority of Australia is, indeed, christian) go around doing good deeds and being nice, but really, why do they do it? To gain acceptance into heaven, to be seen as a wonderful and worthwhile person? Most likely.