i did it again.... i havnt done it in almost a month... but things have been so hard lately i just didnt see any other way to feel better about things. that and ive been throwing up my food. again. i know 137 pounds isnt THAT fat but i feel like a blimp or something equally large and bulbous. i really hate myself right now. i know that sounds emo but i dont care. damn. >_<