i was in so much pain this morning i was almost in tears. i have this pain in my left side and went to the doctor and got a whole shit load of tests done. they made me piss in a cup and drew blood and took x-rays and stuff. my arm where they took blood is bruised as shit. apparently i have blood in me where its not supposed to be. not fun. ooops time for more vic. thats better. sooooo im bored and such and im leaving for Minneappolis at 6:30 today. fun fun. i hpoe Katie can come over till i leave. i ll miss her so much over the weekend. *tear* i tell her everything. shes me best friend. i realized that its damn near impossible to find someone who you can tell everything and not worry that theyll tell someone else. now THATS special. ive only found one other person like that in my whole life. most people only encounter one person like that in their whole lives. knowing that makes me feel better about how today has been going. cuse its yet another bad day at school. i wont go into details. ill just say that its getting harder and harder to escape my past. im trying to destroy my old life to create a new one and people arent letting me do that. oh well i can still try, right? i mean im not trying to destroy everything about who i was, its still a pat of me, but im trying to rid myself of the bad things.