I don't know why hangovers last all day for me. Perhaps it's because, since i don't eat, there's nothing in my system to replace the alcohol. I don't know human biology well so can't be certain. But it sucks whatever the reason. I don't think it's usual to be thinking about suicide to such an extent as i am. I'm worried about myself, and what i could do while intoxicated. Off my meds so very volatile. So i guess i'm bored. Yeah, sorry. What's irritating though is the complete and total obliviousness i am faced with. Too messed up to be properly coherant. 'Found an old journal. It's well written and captures accurately my mental state at the time. I can hardly believe i was so cold. Found an ex's on the same site, i don't recognise her picture at all. http://bollockstothis.xanga.com I'm a very private person inside, but also very social. There's a great level of duality within my personality. Manic depressive FTW!