Ever feel as though your life plays out like a movie? As though you're not living your own life, this is something else. Doesn't feel real. I wish i could simply stop thinking about everything. It doesn't make sense. But on meds, it all works out well. I just don't feel. So it wouldn't matter matter how it goes, being sustained. Drugs. Alcohol and marijuana. What better way to forget. I guess i should be glad nothing else is available here. Can't focus on anything for too long. Doing a good job though.