This is the new & edited version of this entry, as promised. =) It's official. He's absolutely perfect. I didn't even see this whole thing coming a few months ago. I had just recently gotten over someone else and was really hurt by what happened with -that- relationship. I wasn't looking for anything new with anyone else. That was when..he.. happened. Sure, we had been friends for about a year before that. But when I went to Homecoming with him this year, I still didn't see it. I don't know if he did. But I remember saying to him when we were dancing, "This is so great. Everyone is so caught up in so much drama, and for once, I'm not a part of it. I can really just have fun with you, you know?" He's the sweetest guy I've met in years. Here's an example.. One day we were talking, and we talked about how cold it is. He said he was outside playing hockey on a lake after school. I mentioned that I'm scared of the ice, and he asked why, so I told him the story.. and he sympathized. Then he said he's going to teach me how to skate again. How cute is that? He makes me feel better about myself. I feel safe with him. I can be myself around him, and I find that so hard to do around so many people. He's really shy, but he's an amazing person when he opens up to you. There isn't one thing that I don't like about him. He's adorable. He's compassionate, he's funny. Never fails to make me laugh. His eyes are such a deep, pretty blue I could drown in them. He doesn't care that I have a messed up history, but he understands it and helps me through it. He's patient with me. He's been through a lot in the past too. With his dad dying and everything, I don't know how he keeps going and is still such a strong person. But he does, and he is. I look up to him so much. He as a person, I think, has helped me more than I can possibly ever say. He's taught me so much, and he doesn't even realize it. That's one of the reasons I like him so much. He has the most amazing hobbies- everything I've ever wanted in a guy. He snowboards. plays guitar. He's a hockey player. He surfs. He writes. He's amazing. Incredible. How can someone be so perfect and not even realize it? I'm petrified by the fact that I feel what I do. But I'm also so amazingly happy- because I know I can be happy. I'm still terrified of relationships because of my last experience. They scare me. But now I realized that what scares me even more is not being with him. I'm falling so fast for him. And he's the only one I want to catch me.