Prom (updates)

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Feeling: discouraged
Prom... ugh. Ok. So I was going to ask "Him"- I mean I like him soo much. But he told one of my friends that "he's confused" on if he still likes me. Plus, he might be going away on the week of prom, so he might not be able to go anyways. I found all this out yesterday and it seriously sucked because I like him so much. I mean, usually, I don't get so caught up in a guy, or in anything/-one for that matter. I've always been very independent, sometimes even to an extreme, where I won't let people help me, even if I really need it. Anyway, I don't know what it is. But I feel like I need him. Not like, to survive. But I need him in my life. And preferably as more than a "friend"- which is what we are now. I can't take another 3 months of not knowing if something will happen with him. I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel so... lost. Still undecided on whether I should ask him. A friend of mine is now taking Dave, so he's out of the picture.. I really don't think the Gary or Harry thing would work either. Gary, because I haven't seen him in a while; and Harry, because he thinks he likes me now, and I don't want to give him the wrong impression. I suppose, also based on my Harry reasoning, that I should rule out the ex. It'd just be too complicated and dramatized and awkward. No thanks. Bob, well, he's once again out for the same reason- plus I really don't think I know him well enough where I could really relax and let loose and have fun with him at prom. Most of my backup junior guys are taken, too, so there goes that idea. Based on that, I guess I've narrowed it down. This is what it's down to. *Chris- awesome guy, awesome friend. Total non-pressure. Likes to dance, and is good friends with Dave, another underclassman going with my friend, so they could hang out. Great company, and easy to havea conversation with. Down side: he's the ex of one of my friends- but we're not even that close anymore, and we *would* just be going as friends. *Dan- awesome guy, awesome friend. I could seriously have a blast with him. He loves to just rock out and be crazy, and he's adorable. We go back a few years, so it'd be good. I used to like him, but I don't think he knows, and that was over 2 year ago anyway so it's way past the awkward stage. I'm really comfortable with him. He's always great for a laugh, a smile and a hug. Down side: he doesn't go to my school anymore; he tranferred a little over a year ago. He could still get in no problem and everything, & he'd probably get along with everyone fine, so I guess it's not *really* an issue, just another fact. *Him- If I could just sort everything out with him, he's without a doubt or question who I would want to go with. I think about him constantly- no- all the time. Seriously, I eat, sleep, and breathe him, basically. I'm in love with the person he is. His personality. His character. His strength. I just.. I haven't liked anyone so much in a long, long time. Down side: I don't want to further "confuse" him. I also don't want to find out at the last minute that he can't go because he's going away, leaving me dateless. Something tells me he might say no because of that chance, and I don't think I could bear to hear that word from him, even with a good reason behind it. On the other hand, if I went with someone other than him, he might think I don't like him anymore, and decide that he's not so "confused" anymore & just doesn't like me, or just get plain jealous/angry. There's always the possibility of just asking/telling him to/about prom, then going with someone else. But again- awkwardness may ensue. Which should really be avoided at all costs. Okay. I think I'm done. I really needed to get all of that out. If any of you have any ideas, suggestions, comments, etc on what I should do, please leave them- they're greatly appreciated!! I could use all the help I can get. [qb]
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