your intentions were obvious and i learned to love your lies living was just an excuse to die endless cold nights lying alone, letting the tears run from my eyes untouched until they reach an end wondering what exactly i did wrong wondering why intentional pain felt so damn good waking up waiting for your harsh words trying to stay strong so you wouldn't see how easily you were tearing me apart sinking deeper into this darkened nightmare it's instinct to take this blade to my skin gashing away, taking your pain out letting my emotions run the blood comes as quickly as my tears and you honestly say you don't notice break my heart end this. please tell me you don't want me. how imperfect i am hate me. please give me a reason to feel this pain to be alone and unwanted stop believing let hope run dry. please