Well cody just said that me having a head cold may be the first sign of having mono... i hope not that would suck so bad... i'm bored here at home watching 7th heaven...yeah thats what i've resorted too watching chick shows during the night... o well in Jan. snowboarding starts so that'll be cool however its still only nov...:( that sucks! i wish things would be different between me and someone i care about but that'll never be the same again...not like it used to be anyway so where is the sense in wishing to fill yourself with false hope thinking that things will get better or things will go back to hoe they used to be or that things would change and they'd show they care... but like i said it won't happen so why fill yourself with false hope.its what this whole world does we get our hopes up and when it doesn't happen we fall apart and start off like whiners i do it and so does everyone else and it is starting to piss me off i know this aren't going to be the same so why do i even dream or wish or think they will for that matter...cause its that little bit of hope that gets me through the day... wish *he* felt the same yet again i'm wishing... o well my doggy is all good he's not bleeding from his incision anymore! so he's all better Love Jess