No idea how I'm going to take this year's huge workload. I hope I don't repeat my Freshman year, and get horrible grades. I've had this neurotic fear since I was young; it's this fear I've recently dubbed the "April 2006" fear. I'm in my kitchen, crying, with 7 rejection letters staring at me. I feel like I have nowhere to go when I'm crying, like my life is over. I know I shouldn't worry. I've been involved in God-knows how many activities since Freshman year, I'm an honor roll student, I have decent SAT scores, and I'm taking challnging courses this year. It's just that fear that each college admissions staff is going to judge me on my freshman year.