ahhhh Happy FUCKING new years! ill update later. ahhhh Happy FUCKING new years! ill update later. UPDATE~~~~~~~~~ feeling: fucking great hearing: people talk downstairs well happy fucking 2005. i think i started the year off pretty fucking good. alright ill stop saying fuck. well last night kay came over then we went to julias man. HOT. we took some pretty fucking crazy pics man i'd show you them, but i don't know how to do it on here? gay huh. then we watched napolian dynamite fucking funny shit. then kalin and julia fucking mixed us some drinks. can you say fucking NASTY? yea sick as hell, but w/e i drank it. then kalin like to think she was "beating me up" but SHE WASN'T AHHAH. i didn't get to see the ball drop wonder why KAY? there was soo awesome fireworks outside fuck kay we should have bought some. we all know how good you are at lighting fireworks. we stayed up to like 4. evertime i thought i was going to fall something happened. i almost fucking freaked out at one point bc julias brother had the music up so loud at like 430? wth man. but it was a great night. this morning kalins dad came at like 9 fucking o'clock. my body hurt so bad when i got off the floor. i came home and layed in bed for like an hour. shannons coming over soon we're gonna paryt? what yes we are bitch. xOxOx Stephanie i love you hun. everything will be ok. you can only have so much bad luck before it turns good. if you need ANYTHING im here hun.:( would anyone like to go to the mall with me tomorrow? yes mall?

sit bores me anymore.. i've moved to another site. i might update once a month or so.. i dunno though.

UPDATE: its friday thats all have to say and the only wish i had came true.. this week is OVER!

ONLY 11 DAYSS!!!!

you know i've been told that me being honest with people and telling them when they're fucking stupid or annoying is a bad thing and just starts drama. obviously everyone was wrong, because i told people how i felt straight up no ifs ans buts about it. TELL PEOPLE WHEN THEY'RE FUCKING ANNOYING AND WONT SHUT UP ABOUT THEIR BOYFRIEND! trust me i have no problem with people talking to me about shit i think its real funny, but tell the person how ANNOYING they are. why am i always that bad guy. i always said shit and even though people totally agreed with me nobody would EVER back me up they just kinda went along with what was going on SAY HOW YOUR FEELING instead of making me look like the bitch all of the time!

things are going so well for me right now. i was really stressed out last month. i've never been that bad in my life. ahah i never want to be that way again. so im not going to really write about it. i met shannons boyfriend thursday. i really like him. i'm so happy for her right now. shes so happy too she just talks about him with the biggest smile i think i've ever seen. he's treating her so good too. she deserves it she always gets fucked over and i think for the first time shes found a keeper. i want to go christmas shopping so bad right now GR. i need to go get my dad his cd shannon her gifts and my mom something then im finished.

i don't like that last entry. sorry. i also don't like the fact that i have to go to school tomorrow.. is it summer yet? oh yea.. i'm going to San Francisco w/ my BFF!!!

you only think about yourself. i hate you so much i can't even stand when you TALK to my friends.

Happy Thanksgiving! what are you thankful for?

This or That :: Ben or Matt: Ben :: Orlando or Johnny: Johnny, but now kinda Orlando :: Spice Girls or Dream: Spice Girls DUH? :: Pepsi or Coke: depends :: Blonde or Brunette: Brunette :: Blue eyes or Brown eyes: Blue eyes :: Vanilla or Chocolate: depends :: Dogs or Cats: depends :: Christina or Britney: Britney omgosh yes :: Lip-stick or Lip-gloss: Lip-stick i hate lip-gloss :: Rock or Rap: Rock :: Prep or Punk: Punk :: Pink or Purple: ahh omg thats so hard :: Local place or Starbucks: Starbucks :: Tv or Computer: Computer :: CDs or Radio: depends :: Spanish or French: Spanish :: Brad Pitt or Mel Gibson: Mel Gibson :: Basketball or Baseball: Baseball :: Apples or Oranges: Apples :: 1/2 Full or 1/2 Empty: 1/2 Full :: Morning or Night: Night :: Chicken or Turkey: CHICKEN I HATE TURKEY :: Salmon or Tuna: TUNA I LOVE TUNA :: Freedom or Stability: Freedom :: Cheese It or Cheese Nips: Cheese It :: Birds or Bees: um dunno :: Rollercoasters or Waterrides: Waterrides :: AOL or AIM: AIM :: Drugs or Liquor: Liquor :: Gold or Silver: Silver :: Nike or Adidas: Adidas :: 80s or 90s: 90s :: Preschool or Kindergarden: Preschool :: Cubed or Crushed: Crushed :: VH1 or MTV: depends :: Truth or Dare: Truth :: Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings: Harry Potter duh? :: Pen or Pencil: Pen :: Peppermint or Wintergreen: depends :: East Coast or West Coast: depends :: North or South: depends :: Pedicure or Manicure: both :: Target or Kmart: Target :: Top or Bottom: Top :: Hug or Kiss: depends :: Sporks or Foons: Sporks :: Cubs or Sox: i don't care :: Cake or Pie: ew :: Rain or Snow: depends :: Fall or Spring: omg those are my fav i can't pick :: Winter or Summer: Summer :: Swim or Float: Float :: Walk or Run: Walk :: Beach or Mountains: Beach :: City or Suburbs: depends :: Love or Lust: Love :: Carmel or Car-a-mel: Carmel :: Stars or Moons: Stars :: N*sync or BSB: NFUCKING*SYNC :: Car or Truck: Car :: 7th Heaven or Everwood: Everwood :: VHS or DVD: DVD :: Skip-it or Hopscotch: both :: Fish or Birds: depends but i love my bert :: Shoes or Sandals: sandals but i love shoes :: Cough or Sneeze: sneeze :: Bath or Shower: bath :: Stairs or Evevator: stairs :: Yes or No: No :: Jelly-filled or Cream-filled: UCK :: Loud or Soft: Soft :: Sister or Brother: both :: Michael Jordan or Dennis Rodman: i dont care :: Nick or Disney: Disney :: Fun or Boring: Fun :: Ohio or Pennsylvania: Pennsylvania ::New York or California: OMG I WONT PICK

I hate Science!

this whole four day weekend all i did was talk to shannon and julia hearts; ill update tomorrow

okay so i know this is really ugly but i dont feel like fixing it right now so your gonna have to deal.. ill fix it all tomorrow. ps. im really excited for christmas ♥

i really miss my peppep it sucks. i dont feel like typing it all again but i miss him so much i wish he was still here ♥.

its friday i don't want to go to school.

i'm not sure whats going on right now, but im suffocating i can't breathe i feel like everythings falling apart i feel like everyone is doing things to piss me off. i feel like im not going to get anywhere in life did i mention that i can't breathe. all i want to do is go into guidence and cry tomorrow morning, but no i have to go to the one class i hate the most to make up a test. im not sure how much more of this i can take. im falling apart right now and im not really sure why this is happening. i need tomorrow to be over so i can just sit around and do nothing i can't even bring myself to go out anymore. i feel like everyone trying to take my friends away i hate my friends having boyfriends i hate it i hate it i don't like being second as i'm writing this i feel like my chest is going to explode. i need to stop this and go finish my homework but i can't bring myself to do it without crying. i need someone to talk to but there is nobody. i have my friends but i want someon professional. i dont know what to do.

i think its possible that i am in love with this new layout of mine :). i don't like to update this bc it bores me myspace has so much more to play with when it comes to changing the layout. so i dunno maybe i'll update more.. i had an early dismissel on monday i didn't go tuesday or today because i was sick. honestly i could have gone to school, but its so easy to hate school that i just don't care. im so sick of highschool and the same thing everyday and the same drama everyday everyone is so fake. EVERYONE even half of my friends they all just sit and make up shit because they're afraid people wont except them for who they are or for not having a boyfriend so they sit and make shit up. i've never in my life made something up like half these girls do. i could never make up a boyfriend or getting drunk or sneaking out. i dunno its all really imature if you ask me. my beattie teacher told me that i was very mature for my age. she used this nice big word for it, but i can't remember what it was. she told me that i think like an adult and that im a really good kid. i used to wonder if that was bad because people used to get so mad when i'd dissaprove of drugs or somking now i know its just me and i really like it. four day weekend coming up im really excited i probally wont do anything, but whocares life without school is a good life to me.

Name- Rachel Age- 16 Birthday- May 11, 1989 Nickname- Kuhn Eye color- green Hair color- brown with some blonde Height- 70 inches *Wishes & Such Person you wish could fall in love with you- wouldn't you like to know One thing you want most- happiness Thing you've wished for the most- not to have a permit just go out and get your drivers licence Do you believe in fairies? fairies..no Or angels? yes *Love Are you in love- no Have you ever been in love- no Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend- no If yes, do they treat you good- What's the first thing you notice of the opposite sex- hair, teeth, eyes Do you believe in love- yes Or love at first sight- yes Ever had a one night stand- nope Ever fallen in love with a friend- no Do you believe in true love- yes *Favorites Sport- no thanks Song- at the moment is.. The Mixed Tape - Jack Mannequin Band- My Chemical Romance Singer- Tyler Hilton Movie- Breakfast At Tiffany's Memory- anything that was fun w/ my family or friends Actor- James Dean or Sean Penn Actress- Marilyn Monroe or Audrey Hepburn Restaurant- Nenos :DDD Color- orange black pink green Place to hang out- mall? CD- Number- 16 *CrEaTe If you could write a book, what would you name it- not really sure What would be the plot- probally about highschool drama How many people would die- none Would it be sad or uplifting- prob sad, but it would have good things too Do you write poetry- no If yes, what kind- Do you write storys- no If yes, what kind- Can you draw- um..it depends on my mood. Can you sing- no, but that doesn't stop me. *Hobbies Do you play sports- no. Write- no Sing- for fun yes. Act- no Collect anything- yes lots of things sculpt- no build- no blend- no other - idk *SeXy Are you a virgin- yes If yes, are you waiting for marriage- no If no, when did you lose your virginity- Where did you lose it- Was it with someone you love- Someone you trust- Do you dress "sexy"- no Do people think you dress "sexy"- no Do you/will you use condoms or pills- yes i think its really really stupid not to how hard is it to use protection? Hugs are great, sex can wait?- depends *Stereotypes Do you label people- i try not to Have you been labeled- probally Do you like labels- does anyone What are you labeled as- not sure Are all blondes dumb- no Do you like mexicans- ahahahahahahhahhaha Are you racist- no *FUN Are you a risk taker- depends If not, would you like to be- Truth or Dare- truth! Are you the life of the party- not really Do people think you're boring- probally Summer or Winter- What's the most fun you've ever had- im not sure probally anything with my friends Ever done drugs- no Pills- no Ever drank alchohol- yea Are you drug free- yes If not, do you think you should be- Do you like to have fun- everyone does *Random Do you like these surveys- kinda Are you bored- no Is mine any good- i dunno Do you need a life- yes and a job Should you be sleeping at this hour- no Have you ever tried to count the stars- yes hehe