Dear hotpink, I did a random diary search and landed upon yours. I really enjoyed your background and want to be your friend. Hoorah.

Dood, today I went to school and fell down the stairs. It wasn't cool. Now I am about to go and take my dog for a walk because she is about to pee on the floor. I wish I could pee on floors.

It's been like a full year since I have written in this little dandy. I've missed you all...well, actually I kind of forgot about you. Sorry. I'm back and I promise to write more often.

Star Wars opens tonight! Let's make love like ewoks.

so now I don't have to worry about typing diaries.suchisthis.com? I like, I like. Sitdiary.net is much more appropriate, I'd say. Hows you been? I saw Sin City tonight. What a movie! Let me tell you, the cinematography was outstanding, the acting was nice, and it was just great all around. I like to pretend to smile sometimes. It's good exercise for my jaw.

Well Easter was a bust. I woke up at about 8:00 AM and found a note that read, "Shade, I went out, Dad hasn't come home yet, and your brothers are going to be staying with grandma for a while." So in order to salvage a little bit of Easter spirit, I made myself some soup. MMMM, I love soup. Since I am a vegetarian, I don't like Easter ham. It was a pretty good recipe, you'll have to try it sometime. I want a girl who will laugh for no one else.

Pinktoenails owns. To clear up any confusion, the person...my toes are not painted pink. grrrr, manly man who chops down trees and eats 17 pancakes for breakfast. Rawr.

Mamma mia, it has been far too long. How are you, pretty? I suppose you could say I'm getting by, but you didn't ask did you? February flew by, it's crazy how my calendar claims that it's March. Oh well. Tonight I went over to my friend's house because she said I just had to see "I heart Huckabees." It actually was quite good, very very philosophical. Now I sit and wonder why people bother with love and romance. It really isn't real and I know I'm being negative here, but come on. Who's in love? Love is a crappy word that was invented by an asshole. Wow, I need to talk to someone. badly. My mother told me today that I was a mistake. Yay! Mistake rhymes with lake which is what I would like to drown in right now. Stupid diary, how dare you allow me admit all of this. You people don't care, do you? I'm just some kid with an abnormal name. On another note, el band and I played a show the other night and afterwards this girl approaches me and says, "I like your shoes." Assuming she was making a reference to Bright Eyes I replied, "Thanks can I follow you?" She didn't get it. People are toxic fumes in which I choke on.

Hello there children. I haven't taken a nice sit down to write in this little dandy for quite some time now, so without further adieu...my entry. Today I went over to my old girlfriend's house because she said she wanted to talk. It was....interesting. It turns out we're just going to be friends. That can't happen, we're just going to spread apart and end up not talking to eachother anymore. Friday the band I'm in played in the "Rockin' for the Tsunami" event downtown." We did well. I'm shocked they let us play...we are very unknown compared to some of the other bands on the bill. Yeehaw. I felt her heartbeat and it made mine stop.

Happy Valentine's Day to you all. Sometimes I like to lock myself in my room and listen to Conor Oberst tell it like it is.

Valentine's Day is for chumps. I plan on celebrating it by myself. All alone in my room, drinking chocolate milk and eating cookies...that I will bake. i suck.

School today was a drag. From an intellectual standpoint, it was good because I got a 94% on my physics test and a 96% on my English test. From a social standpoint, quite sad. I didn't really feel like eating lunch today, so I just walked to a park near and school and drew. I wish I could be a little child again, not have to worry about girls or grades or anything except which piece of playground equiptment I want to conquer next. Fin.

I tried to talk to her today, I made her a card that had a picture of peas dancing around and it said "We're two peas in a pod." She laughed and said it was cute, but she doesn't want us to be anymore. I guess that's okay. Actually, I'm not really cool with the whole idea, but oh well. In this movie of life, I always get cast as the nerdy boy who finally finds a girl and then gets his heart broken. Why can't I be the stud? Your faithful loser, Shade

She's gone. We were happy for two years. It wasn't even one of those on and off relationships. It was pure, the purest element I knew of. Drown me. UPDATE: We were lovers, we were kissers We were holders of hands; we were make-believers just losing time You said you'd rather live in T.V. land and then say that you can but you don't That's heartless and I will not cry But I'm still in love And I'm still in love And I'm still in love And I'm still in love You're dreams of acting on screen. What do they mean? You'll be dancing senseless in your bedroom and You find yourself out of a job and before too long You'll be selling lemonade to the overpaid And I'm still in love And I'm still in love And I'm still in love And I'm still in love I remember it was summer; I was out of my head but you would You're selfish and a waste of space But I'm still in love And I'm still in love

I'm new, let's be friends. I can dance and sing for crackers or oatmeal. My name is Shade. I enjoy writing and strumming my guitar. Most of the people on this site are attractive, and that excites me. Er wait, that sounds weird. Eh, I'm new. I can get away with murder.