hello whoever. its 346 am. i just need someone. anyone. i dont know what to say. i dont know if i am allowed to feel. am i allowed to feel? i love you. do you love me? it is so scary to think that each and everyday. to share. i hurt. but i need to be strong. if not who will be? should i turn my head. should i leave? where would i go? to my moms? no. to the streets? maybe. maybe my heart wouldnt hurt near as bad. who knows? this is all i have ever known. this is all i have ever wanted to know. to share. i dont understand? does anyone really ever understand? can you ever know a person as much as you think you do? or no? is it all an illusion? who knows? i just want to be happy. i mean i am happy. arent i? moving so far away. feeling so alone. i am not alone. or am i? i feel alone? i love you. i know. do u love me? i dont know?