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lackadaisical i like that word even though i dont really know what it means but thats okay. Um well today was pretty cool because it was super cold well not really but to me it was cold. Uhh first hour seemed like it was going to be cool but it wasnt cause he came late and i thought he wasnt going to be there oh my god this boy is just super annoying its like he thinks i care that he likes 1005 girls..yeah i pretty much dont but w.e im gettting used to ignoring him. Aside from that we just took notes and stuff which was okay no big deal.

yeah well i got a new layouuut! its kind like my myspace one cause i got it fmo ehre duh lol www.myspace.com/andreacroes yupyup if u wanna add me =] yeah well today i went to tc with a few cool kids and him and omg wow i feel sp stupid like ok heres my reasons of y im so stupid 1.I had 2 chances with him both of which i ruined 2.Theres no way its ever going to happen again 3.I still wish it was yeah thats basically it lol i just i like ihm SO much again its annoying really lol i mean honey its been so long you should be over it right? right but im not...=[ and i've learned form the past few times hes not the guy who i like and get over hes the guy who either shows me he doesnt wanna oorr the guy who i go out with again and since the whole going out again thing is Obviously not going to ever happen again cause he doesnt want to..i tihnk lol i tihnk he doesnt i dont even know yet but im almsot sure lol i just get a not again feeling and it makes me sad of course but theres nothing i can do i cant just grab and be like i want you! lol hummm maybe i could jkay jkay lol i wouldnt but ya were just gunna have to wait and see how things turn out...i hate waiting lol like ughhhhhh ::crys:: why cant things be simple like i like you lets get married?? ugh lol maybe someday things will be like that in my dreeeeams lol well thats it for now ¢¾

okkk so i havent really written here in a while like reeeally written so i thought i should yupyup well schoold been kool i guess as good as it can be being school we just had midterms..yay? i did really bad =[ but w.e my moms over it soo its kool and umm well guys no comment lol cuz believe me if thigns were good iw ud have wiitten about it i mean of cousre as always there is this one guy and i do like ihm but im not telling u who it is cuux i dont want him 2 know cuz like as much as i like him i have reasons like the fact that not again lol and the fact that im 100% sure he likes someone else and the fact that i fear rejection lol so me = :x lol but ANYWAYYYYS umm i cant tihnk of anything else and i g2g bye ♥me

well im at school right now wit emmi doing a research paper how f-u-n yupyup it is lol well i wanted to write yesterday but i forgot lol well yeah anywayyys mm yesterday was kool =] =] =] =] =] yup and ummm im going to go now because i thnk might have to actually do research for this thing lol byyye AndiHeartsYou

ok so scott && me r over and u know what im ok with it because i have these kool friends who came over right away to help me and i love them! yay scot(with one t and chris make my day better)

new guy teehee so awesome hes sooo perfect im totaly myself aorund ihm my friends are totaly themselfs around him he doesnt always expect me to go out he does come to my house and things just plain rock =]

okk well its official were on a "break"...:/ ya its kinda blah ish but it was deffitnely for the best cuz more then obviously things werent that great right now idk what'll happen after but ya for right now its over-ish

ok well today offcially sucked...my boyfriend is being a ahh idk whats wrong like someone sent him an email with a Fake conversation of me and some guy saying we should like hook up and me being like yaaa sure ya key word being fake:NOT F-ING REAL ok so ya then he was horrible 2 me at school and after at town center hes drunk right and he slike just being a total asshole and its just incredible how u can think you know someone but u really dont because the moment when it comes to them showing u they trust or care about u they back out or get drunk and beomce total losers like i mean when i heard he liked that natalie girl i had enough trust to ask him aobut it and like find out if it was true rather then just go get drunk and act like a dumbass like argh. && to top it all off im so0o0o confused about a ton of other shit schools a bitch familys not so ggreat lately what do i have besides my friends right now? nothing :( its times like these that are in life for one reason and one reason only to show you the true meaning of friendship and those who care about you and today eveyr single one of my friends that were there/ex bf showed me that and i cant help but smile sometimes because i know they care. At the same time i still love but i do get the feeling its highly one sided and not worth my time anymroe i mean its not the first time he treats me bad and stuff why do it put up with it? cause i love him? at first i thought no cause i really loved ryan before he broke up with me and if ryan wud have pulled that shit it wud have been over. Is it cause hes older? do i feel "cool" going out with him? i truly dont know actually that might be it though i doubt it. Could it be cause the way he treats me when things are fine, the way he can be such a great person..when no one else is around..ya maybe thats it...who knows im sure i dont all i know is I do love him and i wouldnt want it to end over a stupid thing like a fake conv. but sometimes theres just nothing you can do because when you werent meant to be with someone..you just arent..no matter how much you fell in love with them the second they walked into your party, no matter how good it fells when he holds and kisses you, no matter what sometimes...its just not whats meant to happen and i have to understand that or else im going to end up living my whole life sufffering over someone whos not worth it...or is he? As you might have noticed i cant but i still wonder. Was he acting like this tonite just cause he was drunk? did he do it cause of what he "thinks" i did? i dont know but i wish i did gosh im just so confused...all i know is that im not sure i want it to end no matter how sure i say i am..and that well the next part i cant mention because im nto in the mood to get my ass kicked lol but yaa maybe something is again and ahh idk we'll see what happens maybe when hes "sober" Song Of The Day: Polygraph, Right Now-THE SPiLL CANVAS

one month anniversary mad coo

omg well i love school it rocks outloud seriously i mean the work kinda sucks but theres so much freedom! Plus many hot guys Not like i canre cuz i love my BF But there still nice to look at tee hee Picture day was today I looked poopy But who cares I dont idk why im typing like this maybe im just kool ya thast it todays jamies bday! she rocks I almost died in school i had "fatigue" but i was saved by scot and jamie and im gunna go now cuz i have tons of hw ♥ Andi

ok new rule of life people when someone tells you you and ur bf are cut emake sure u ask if they've fucked before LMAO

ok warped tour...rocked and i would totaly write a 500 page entry about it but im lazy and stuff tee hee but just know sit was one of the greatest experience ever cuz last eyar bands were better for me but the people this year like the big group mix was just really kool and and i got free backpack yupyup and schools tommrow ahhhhhh ::jumps:: wow excited level=really high lol yay wow me=loser excted for school but but its 9th grade i mean how kool gosh lol wow im too happy for my own good :) lol well i have too goo pick out my outfit lol and yaa i'll write tommrow to tell u how it went -Andi

SHYES!!! ok ok so yesterday was valerias big sleepover and it was so! fun lol we danced to ice cream and cake in the rush hour traffic went shoppin and ahh it was just awesome lol we made "pooch" ya its as yummy as it sounds...:) well ne waaays so warped tour is tommororw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg ::jumps up and down:: im so0o0o0o excited and and then sunday..um nothing but monday first day of school yes i am very excited thank u very much lol 1st day of high school ::sigh:: one of those thigns i didnt c coming like its wierd i didint hit me till like..a week ago lol but w.e lol yay happy cuz this summer like rocked especially the end lol like ok the begging was kool 2 but oh so slow then like about a month ago it was just kooler lol =D im liek the only loser thast excited lol but fuatever lol i g2g cause i have 2 get ready for movie tonite if i can go -ANdi

ok heres my day *wake up *eat *hang out with the family of course *Go get my warped tour ticked my sister wudnt remeber *Come home get grounded by mom lol *Go to KFC with older sister *go to publix with olser sister *come home *have 3 missed calls frmo kelli *call kelli back *talk 2 kelli *Talk to omar on kellis fone *omar asks me out *i say yes *hang up fone *Jump up and down *^same^ *Call mariana *talk 2 mariana *call jamie and not have her pick up *get online *talk 2ppls *write this entry *the end* ahh wat a bittersweet day with more sweet lol warped tour+omar+great food+friend there for me=Awesome day lol -Andi

omg omg omg wow omg lol im ah yay this si so kool! ahh i g2g2 cuz i cant sat it ehre but shh and if u really wanna nkow and like u know me then ask me duh! -Andi

*Entrys without #'s = letters to andrea written by steph :)* lol wow i just realized if listened to hellogoodbye a lot but i thnk its cuz they remind me of....someone...:( but ive been thinking and ya but sometimes i know people that make people think they like them and they dont and i dont think thast what ehs doing but cuz it be..idk lol like i was talking to someone who happened 2 like this particular someone and she said hes veery hard 2 get over and its like suse tell me about it like idk y but he got into my head and wont leave..its like ahh unstoppable feeligns gosh i hate it i wish things could go back to when i just thought he was really hot and nice..or before i even thought.. thought he liked...me but now im having doubts a ton of them like wow i means eriously hes probally got many girls after him and i mean blah im not gunna take my time to complain aobut myself lol but ya not his best choice....idk he said we would hang out tommrorw and i guess im just gunna have 2 wait and see how thigns go...but i dont know lol like ahh its so wierd thanks to constanze she halped lol and made me feel like a total DORK lol im sure she enjoyed that but ya big help lol but still little confused andrea sitting hes corner waiting for him to call or IM lol but who knows lol im not psycic i mean yes i have a very strong vibe that im totaly right and nothings gunna ever happen but "hey" who knows lol thres a hello goodbye song that says EXACTLY how i feel and here it is -andi If You Wanna I Might lyrics by Hellogoodbye You take a seat right next to me And i take my lit notes nervously Ive gotta stay calm i just want you to stay I am always daydreaming Hoping youve dreamt of the same thing Ive gotta stay calm i dont this to change Ive been assuming everything Hoping you'll soon mean everything Ive gotta stay calm i want this to be real I dont think you're into me But truely thats okay with me Ive gotta stay calm and find out how you feel So if you wanna say 'i-i-i like you' I might feel just like you If you choose-choose not to I knew you-you would Sometimes i think i am out of my league And then sometimes i think i can dream Sometimes i wish i could be the one fish That you choose out of all in the sea We are non existant But i'll try to be persistant Ive gotta keep on if want to be close to you I know you're uninterested Im probably just some stupid kid I could give up if you would want me to

lalala wow im in a really good mood dont know why but i am :) yeah well tommorow were going to town center as usual lol its gunna b awesome :)ahh i have 2 go cuz me and mariana are kool enuff we do our hair the day b4 ;) -Andi

he doesnt, he didnt he wont...end of story...