im really bored and theres not much to write about....ill update when i have somthing interesting to talk about....(this could take a while....) ~ash~

i guess all i can say right now is HOLY SHIT MOTHER OF GOD!!!! last night was so... unforgetable, amazing, and awesome....and for those of u who want to know y...i might tell u but i dont know...lol becuz unlike some stupid dum asses..im not stupid enough to write shit in my journals that i dont want others to know... ~ash~

fridays volleyball game sucked jv lost bad but the varsity won...i havent heard anything from the cops and were moving Oct 1-2 i spent the night at erics last night..nothing happened..lol ~ash~

well update...im in trouble with the cops for bullshit..the protection order against calebs dad (wayne) might be droped and he might get caleb... found out the we have to move by oct. 10th becuz there bulldozing our house...omg so much fun today... ~ash~

this day kinda sucked...but wuts new im a junior in high school....key phrase there: high school...people havent matured yet...i have class with people i really dont wanna have class with but then again i also have class woth people i do so wutever... i got my contacts on Weds. and everybody loves them almost as much as i do lol... but i g2g ill write to you all l8r...

wow my weekend was busy... Friday: i found out that we have to be out of here by Oct. they are bulldozing this house.... so were moving...we have to get rid of koda... and we found a house all in the same day lol... Saterday: my uncles wedding was kinda boring but i found out that i have a lot of cousins lol... and i caught thye bouquet haha... it was funny... Sunday/today: my ride home was ok we went to the portland mall and i blew all my money lol... 0:) but its on school clothes which i needed... im home and im so glad...ill talk to you all l8r... ~ash~

i fucked my hand up...stupid me... we were playing a game in volleyball practice yesterday and i dov for the ball the same time steph did and i pulled back and landed on my hand...i pulled a tendon and almost sprained my thumb...ouch...i hope it gets better by tom. i wana play so bad... ~ash~

You've gotta take the good with the bad. (Smile with the sad. *Love* what you've got. Remember what you had. Always forgive and forget. Learn from mistakes and never regret. People change and things go wrong but always remember. *Life Goes On* by - ? ~ash~

I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did, You fell so hard I've learned the hard way To never let it get that far Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because i know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid Because of you Because of you

This year is offically called karma year... wuts gone around the past two years is coming back..one by one..i hope u r ready.....right tanya & cait lol *wink* ~ashley~ P.S. Payback is a mother fucking bitch dont fuck with me!!!!!!!

I act like I dont care but deep down Im lying cause everytime I see you all over her Im dying... -By amanda ~ashley~

Girls~ ~Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot... ~Who calls you back when you hang up on him... ~Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep... ~Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead... ~Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats... ~Who holds your hand in front of his friends... ~Who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on... ~Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you... ~Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." Guys* *Find a girl who calls you BABE or baby face instead of HOT or SEXY... *Who can't stand it when you hang up on her... *Who would sit there for hours looking into your eyes... *Wait for the one who doesn't care what you look like, but what's inside counts the most... *Who looks at you with the twinkle in her eyes and kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips... *Who wants to be with you in public... *Who makes you smile just by knowing she loves/likes you back... *Wait for the girl who is a constant reminder of your happiness and joy... *Wait for the girl who you give piggy back rides to in public and she still is in view of her friends, while she gets off and you hear her go: "you're the one for me, for always." Both* find someone that you can trust more then anything... -by april ~ashley~

One more day Is all I want One more time to just say good bye I need to see you one last time to end this pain to not leave me in vain you left me so fast I miss you so much with all my heart your in my thoughts your in my dreams even though you dont see I still care I cant take it any more I have to make it end ~my good friend laurie~ i miss you bunches girly... u better come and visit me sometime...

dont ever regret somthing that had once made u smile.... ~ash~

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weak and most susceptible? Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need someone to protect them? Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are: I love you, Sorry and help me Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves? Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty? Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding? Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds? Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it to their face? Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted? Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

and it starts..... If you love like you said you did... youll end up together once again... and this time youll know better then to hurt him again...hint hint .... ~ashley lynn~

wow wut a long day.... iv been up on my feet working from 7:30 this morning and all i can think about is blueberries....or really loud dogs...i have a monster head ache and my feet are throbing...i just got home about a halk hour ago...(6:30)...im so tired... Should i talk or keep my problems inside??? P.S. to the an. comment..thats a lil creepy...lol talk to you all l8r ~ash~

I wanna get you in the back seat windows up That's the way you like to fuck, clogged up fog alert Rip the pants and rip the shirt, ruff sex make it hurt In the garden all in the dirt Roll around Georgia Brown that's the way I like it twerk Legs jerk, overworked, underpaid but don't be afraid In the sun or up in the shade On the top of my escalade Maybe your girl and my friend can trade; tag team, off the ropes! On the ocean or in the boat! Factories or on hundred spokes! What about up in the candy sto' that chocolate chocolate make it melt Whips and chains, handcuffs, smack a little booty up with my belt Scream help play my game; dracula man I'll get my fangs Horseback and I'll get my reigns, school teacher let me get my grades ...what do u want...

Nicks back YAH!!! lol His party's tonight and i cant wait to see him...i missed him...

do i want what i dont want and dont want what i do want...? ~ashley lynn~