there is alot that needs to be said, i have seen the light, and in doing so i have saw myself and i have saw the way i was, and i did not like it, i was evil, my intentions were all wrong and my life fueled by greed and lust, but there was many people i met during this period, and i fear that meeting them and being their friend on such bad terms may have ruined the oppertunity to ever trully be their friend...but now i am good, and it feels good, at first i was down because i thought i had nothing to be happy about, but i was evil for so long redemtion is not easy, i thought about islolation, so i would not hurt anyone anymore, but i have gained faith in my will power, i will not heed into lust again, their is some people i must point of specfic, Rachel, im sorry for what i have done, i do want to actually be your friend for who you are and patric is a good guy and is my friend and i do want it to work out with you, Ashley, im sorry i touched you even when you and others told me to stop, im sorry that i yelled at you in our last conversation, if you want to try being friends again i promise you my intentions are only to be friends, i really want to just learn to appreciate you for who you are and not because you are there, im sorry to everyone that i was in such a bad mood today but after such a drastic change back it took me awhile to find myself again, and now that i have i can finnaly be content again, i want to say thank you to ryan for being there the whole time and always trying to make me see more clearly even when he knew i was wrong, it feels good to be, well good again, *takes a deep breath* ok well leave comments ^_^ -nathan-