UGhh i hate this!! i hate being sad nd depressed every fucking day!! i hate puting a fake smile nd trying to be happy!UGh gosh.. anywayzz..today we went to HHS nd there was this play thing..nd the man was talking about being nice to every1 cuz we never no wats going on inside them nd stuff....ya ugh i hate my life..its annoying wen pplz dont notice anything..AHh w/e I feel so out of place. Like no one wants me to be here. I don't like who I am, and what I do sometimes puts me in tears. How I act to you, just isn't the real me. I hide all my feelings, so no1 can see all the pain i have locked up inside im losing what all i worked so hard to get Im losing all of my pride I cant look in the mirror I don't like to see what's hiding in my eyes since there's no light to guide me in the skies Everyone's turning their backs on me I can't trust no one anymore they all hurt me and now my eyes pour with the pain thats been building up I sit here longing to find what's really true but im too blind to see the light what's really good in life every night i sit and cry holding to my wrist a blood stained knife I hide it under my bed just in case I make up my mind to end all of this s**t and take me from this world that's so unkind.