"A life so sleazy as my own" quoted from an e-mail from Dan for my docudrama. trueful as trueful as can be " STD SQUAD!" now that ones me, about you know who. thanks to matt for driving me home today "many luving directed that way" Gah, I'm a stupid love sick puppy, everything, and i mean EvERYTHING seems to matter when it comes to that ryan of mine. my old self? wouldnt care, would cheat in a minute. me now? i get sick just thinking of being with somebody other than him. it's driving me insane, too much loving, yet NOT ENOUGH!. i realize all of you hate me talking about him often, but this is my diary and i love that kid. therefore: S-U-C-K- I-T- U-P-