Great...for comp. class i have to write a newsletter. Didn't we do that the day before yesterday?!??! Everything's the same. It's like a pattern. From when i wake up to when i go to sleep. I think the same, i act the same, i speak the same, and so on and so forth. I swear.... it's a itch i'm waiting to scratch. Doesn't anyone understand that i'm numb??!?!? i can't think straight! I get all these ideas.... I'm very pessimistic. Even Melissa asks me: "why are you so negative?The world isn't that fucked up.!" Yeah but it isn't fair! I just.... i don't know. I guess everyone goes through that. But somehow this has lasted for so long. It doesn't go away... And me still not getting over the fact that john broke my heart doesn't help... ::sigh:: Some people are so lucky they don't even realize it. I should go now...i gotta work on my newsletter. P.S.> My tounge still hurts.... and i told my mom about it. She wasn't mad..... Since i've already done it. P.P.S> Give me hugs people!!!!!