Listening to: soil - pride
Feeling: eh
today was boring, i did nothing but hang out with jackie in miami beach. we walked and talked but, i didnt feel so much like talking so i felt wierd for a few hours. umm, i couldnt go clean joe, but yessy did which was awesome. we lost another lamb, and i feel sorry for solmarie but shes doing awesome in recovering. better than i did. then again i saw my lamb choke to death, she just watched it fall asleep and never wake up. but, she has to halter break a calf now. i wish her luck, i might have to help her though. its going to be funny tomorrow, watching james try to walk joe. im going to laugh so hard. oh well, maybe hes good at it. maybe.
10|18|04
i cut today..... it all started when this girl gave me a pin and told me to throw it away. i went to 5th and just started poking myself. then it got worse, i started scratching until the blood came out. i cant stop now. jennifer and anthony kept giving me more pins, james wanted me to stop. now, i really dont know what to do.
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