nothing new.....yea well thats a LIE. ive been so depressed lately and its just been so frustrating. i mean my parents are confusing me to the point where i dont want to be around them anymore. my dad's phone broke...he sat on it... and so its hard to reach him whenever he needs to be reached. i know thats pissing my mom off. i dont talk to him, cause theres nothing for me to say to him anymore. my mom is going through some emotional rollercoaster and is dragging me along with her. my parents say their going to divorce one day and then the next they seem unseperable. my sister dosen't seem affected by it which is good, but its harder for me. my mom says she has a hard time making friends...i mean shes 35 and yea its harder at that age but shes not even trying. my friends are all wack. i dont think i have one true friend. i dont think ive ever had one. i mean, me and jackie are just completely different. shes more of a prep and im more of a skater...meaning i have more of that kind of attitude. so i dont really like people like her. and then everyone else just drifts away from me at one point or another. either way, home is just not to good right now. and i feel it wont be for a while. my senior year [im in my sophmore year] im going to california, which is far far away from here [im in florida] and i can just leave this past behind. i know if my parents do divorce, it will be harder for me to go but i know its better for me if i do. me and alexis turn 4 months today. hes been basically the only good thing in my life right now. and i love him so much for that. but whatever....i see from all the other diaries ive read...im not the only one with these problems...
look at this [it might cheer you up, the way i cheered up]:
u now iv been feelin depressed 2 lately an mi parents alwayz seem 2 b pissin me off...it realli sux but hang in there...congrats on ur 4 months maybe he's ur tru friend..
-lex
:)