It has been really hard these past couple of days. Ths guy that i really like and we really like one another has went back home...althoguh we live in the same state...thigns arent just the same. Well we no one another..btu we would talk online everyday...well see he wa at his aunt house..who seems to be very awesome..she lives in wisconsin. It would be jus fun jsu talkign to them all the time.. and i really started to liek him.. and my interest in him has gotten deeper. Feelign the way i do its going to be hard for me to let go.. if i have to. I dont know ..should i have gotten as close to him as i did ? Well since he moved back home we only talked once..which was last nite..he got home mnday. im not trying to rush or anything but it was just awkward.His family is soo cool... and sweet. I dont wanna not tlak to him...even if we coukd jsu be friends i wuld let that be. He says he is sorry he was jus getting adjusted at home... i truly understand that. WEll im also havign a lil school problem... they are tyna make me stay a sophmore again because i changed schools.. i was always in a private school... i started school late so they had finally decided to put me in my right grade..so i never went to 7th...so now that im goign to a public school...they said they would have to put me in the grade i should be in...it really sucks. i dont know what to do.and for this guy eric i wrote a poem about him here it goes ERIC JULY 2004( the name) When im consciously in pain You pop up and remind of the sun without the rain It’s hard to believe but yea it’s true To meet a guy like you, who would have knew? We can argue just to make up, it would be cute all the time Cant wait until you sing those songs for me, I’ll like ‘em even if they don’t rhyme You remind me of a perfect world, Perfect human beings Us not talking, is like the whip without the cream I think its really cute and funny how we say we missed one another Makes me realize the precious we could have with each other Your very funny, loose, straight up, and have nothing to lose I’d pick you out of all guys , if I had to choose Your like a brother and best friend with the feelings on the side Feelings?….. Uncontrollably I definitely can’t hide One day I wish I could hold you, comfort you the way couples do Show the love you know….make you trip over my shoe There can be no one like us, and there will never be I wonder does he know this and feel the same way about me