yo diary i am soo tired and worn out. Idont even knwo why i am up this morning. Yesterday....i had to work 14 hrs. thats like my whole life. Well i worked at the office from 10 am 10 5 pm . The i went to the thater which is down the street... De La Soul and LuDacris was in town..had to do security. It was hell..they were calling women upon the stage and everything...fighting with them... i wish i could jus give up. This isnt wat i wanan be in life...but my father insist that i do this...so when he past away i could run his compnay. I hate doing things that i dont want to do..makes me hate my self even more..im hoping that one day i could come back to reality to live the life i want tolive and not wat some 1 else wants me to do. Today and yesterday i still havent talked to eric..usually he would be online... wonder and worry about him much.... i hate to see us just not talk... life really sux.. i fucking hate it..nothing goes right in this crooked as world. bye