Hello everyone first things first what do u think of the new colours im still tweeking it a little but im liking it.And another thing before i explain my title thanks so much ann car underwater is one amazing song!!! Ok so now on to what im over finaly! Well being who i am i took a certain incident too far someone hurt me they still dont understand why they hurt me so much but well he did. And well it stayed with me for a long time but i now understand that he really shouldnt have such an affect on my life i mean i shouldnt want to run away from him everytime i see him and i shouldnt do such horrible things to him (hee hee fag ash!!) yes he hurt me and yes i dont ever want to be with him again but he shouldnt change how im going to do things. I still listen to her mask and now i can listen to it with out thinking of him. I can joke about coconuts with my mates with out thinking about how much he hurt me. My friends will be reading this and think "oh god how sad is she i thought she got over him ages ago" or "oh for fuck sake eli move on" but they dont understand how its still with me and neither do i but it did really affect me but hey i dont care anymore iv realised that i dont need to think about him at all i dont need to associate with him at all and i dont need to warn my mates off if they want to make that mistake then thats there choice id like to tell them not to and i hope they will listen cause i dont want any of them to go through what i did cause i do love you. So anyway it might not sound like such a big deal to you all but hey this means a lot to me i hope all of u can understand that and try not to bitch to me about still being hung up over it. Oh and peter if u do read this which i doubt well yes i do hate you and no i dont want anything to do with you ever again so please next time you see me dont talk to me or try and hug me i wouldnt be able to stand it. ok well thats me done please if you are going to comment dont slag me for this cause its taken me a long time and this means a lot to me even if you cant understand that. Love you all xXx