Heya everyone not writen in ages because ive not been feeling myself and i really need to get my life in order. Its just not happening tho. I want to stop feeling. Its as easy and as hard as that i just want to stop. Life would be easier if i could. I would be able to concentrat in school and i might pass these exams. Also i would be happier because i wouldnt be stressing about someone not liking me or if i should like a person when i know they r bad for me. My life is so hard,but then i think that i have it easy compared to some people. God then why is it such a stress. Im finding it hard to get on with people just now they just piss me off so much. And i hate that i get pissed off because it makes me all moody and god hate it hate it!!!! Ok so is anything else happening just now i hear u ask.... Oh im on study leve just now its actually very boring and i cant be bothered studing but i will i promise i will...im going to the cinema today with a girl from work../i miss certain people and would do anything to just have a little chat with them but i suppose its like an addiction if i had a little chat with them i would want them to be friends with me again and i know that cant happen. Oh god i had to spend time with carrie smith the bitch god i hold grudges too much but i cant help it i hate her. And know shes going out with jay! god he could have done so much better than that! and then she comes out with shit slaging off duncan!god wat a bitch!!!! she has no idea at all! if she did she might understand how much it hurt me! oh for fuck sake i really am stresed just now.hmm need something to do before i go to the cinema i think typing is good ive missed it. Oh and thanks for all ur comments guys ann you are great and we will meet up sometime soon i miss u girly. ahh i already miss laura and stephy sad i know but i do girlys ur such great fun and u keep me going. we will have to meet up soon and "study" oh well im going to go and read peoples entrys love ya all xxx