Oh for fuck sake what the hell is happening to me? Why do i get so fucked up so easily? Why dont people just tell me things is it that hard? For fuck sake do they think they are trying to protect me or do they want to hurt me more? Oh for god sake im going to soud so sad but i need u just now even to just have a conversation that is about nothing i really really do but i suppose that this is making me stronger managing to get throught things on my own. I cant be bothered with lies anymore from anyone and thats that i hate having to take things people say with a pinch of salt and i hate not knowing what you mean when u do things! Why did u do it just the one little comment thanks for it it does mean a lot but now i gotta double tripple guess it to try and understand you but oh i give up yes i really really want to talk to you and this is the only way i can as i still cant bring myself to e-mail you and then for days later be constantly hoping that u will e-mail back i cant go back to that as you know but i do miss chatting. ok thats over and done with im going to post this now and i think ill start an other one thats happier please comment people not just the one im talking to just now but all of you i miss you all so much EVERY ONE OF YOU no matter what iv said before love you xxxx