Didnt go to school today. I was to tired, so mom told me i could stay home. I have missed way to much school. Im passin everything, not with very good grades but i will have to work on that. Well i havnt written in here for a long time, and alot has been happening. Marty got back on saturday but didnt bother to come and see me all weekend. But then he phoned and asked me to go to lunch with him. That went ok. I spent alot of time with joey while he was in town. Yea i admit we kissed, alot. Nothing more. He told me he really wished i lived in redlake and that he really liked me. But i have just been feelin so shitty lately. I thought i found a guy (marty) that would last a long time and i would be happy. Then he has to go and do all that shit. I waited this long for him and hes making it seem like he doesnt even care. Its been two nites now that ive waited for him to call like he said he would but he hasnt. I kno i am at the wrong for kissing joey, but i have mixed emotions right now. N im so confused. Neway, things usually turn out for the worst so im ready for it. I watched a cinderella story and jersey girl last nite and this morning. They are chick flicks but they are so good. Yea im a loser. But i am going to go watch some viva la bam. I downloaded like 10 episodes on my computer haha. Aww Bam.. so HOT. Later =.Nothing seems to go your way and everything seems Wrong.