havent written in here forever.. nothing new.. my life really is as boring as shit. been hanging out with new people. Its alot better, maybe even found myself a good guy. But with my luck ill end up fuking that up to. i always seem to manage somehow. Like i dont know what it is. im not a shy person. just whenever im around people i act so quiet like i dont know what to say. i keep telling my self to just knock it off. but i cant. people dont get it. ive lost two people becuz of it. maybe its becuz im scared. scared of what i dont really know yet.