hmm....
Listening to: roommate sleeping...
Feeling: alone

maybe i should get on here more often...

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wow its been awhile...

yup i'm in college know...wow...its pretty good. lots of work to do, going to classes. should be writing a criminology research paper, but i'm not...hahahaha...oh well...but yea, life isn't too bad. being away from home is good becuase that is were most of my stress came from. my family. i can't wait to see my boy again!! it'll be four months since i last saw him, and thats a damn long time!

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sometimes i wish....

yea i haven't been on here for awhile...wow...so college is gonna cost sooooooooooo much money, its ridiculous! i'm stressing about it. getting a job to pay for everything. sometimes i wish i did apply to the academy like my boy. he's done so much so far and gone to so many places. i really would much rather have my ass kicked than go through what i'm going through right now. the scary thing is, is that he told me i probably could do it. you know get in and get through all the shit. well the shit is easier now, cuz they softened up a lot of the summer training but still. i was like whoa...you figure not having to pay for college, but serving 5 years after...shit, right now that looks good to me...i don't know what i'm thinking, but its just a thought...

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oh what fun...
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: amused

so this week, i started running again. i have to do it, otherwise i never will. i want to start good habits before i go off to college in the fall. there is no way i'm gonna gain the freshman 15. i haven't really ran for a couple months, so i thought i was gonna die on the run i planned on doing. i ran around my block, and there are a couple hills and its about a mile and 3/4, so its a pretty good run. the first time i was able to get through it. i was happy. it just sucks that right before i get back home there is a steep ass hill. it feels good to do something again. i want to keep running, and i'm going to start expanding my run. so i'm gonna make it longer and longer. i wonder how much i can push myself. i'm aiming for 6 miles by the end of july/august. so we'll see what happens. i love it, i really do. no matter how much it sucks while doing it, i love the feeling afterward. i know that while my boyfriend is home i'll be getting a good workout, because i'm gonna work out with him and he's gonna whip my ass into shape. it'll be fun (i hope) i can't wait till he comes home!!!!! only 8 days!!

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stupid boyfriend
Listening to: nothing
Feeling: bothered

so i just got off the phone with my lovely boyfriend. we had almost a 2 hr arguement about what would happen if one or more our kids (if we have them together) were to be gay. i'm willing to accept my children for whomever they wish to be. its just they way they are and i can't change it. i will love my children for who they are and support them. being gay isn't something you can change about yourself, its just what happens. i personally do not have a problem with gay people, or bi or whatever. i don't really care. he says that if his kid is gay, he'll be kicked out of his life once he reaches 18. that is wrong. you shouldn't handle the situation like that! grrrrr...

i don't feel like writing anymore..i will later

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girls....(warning: its a rant!)
Listening to: radio
Feeling: torn

so in the unwritten code of friends, you're not supposed to abandon your friends for a guy. its okay to have a boyfriend, but to totally block yourslef from them is just not cool!

so yes, that has recently happened. i really don't understand. so first these two started becoming good friends and got closer and closer, and that was cool and all whatever. but all of a sudden they were in their own little world all the time. in the halls they wouldn't say hi if they were together. i was friends with both of them too! the guy would say hi to me and talk whenever she is not with him. its really annoying! i don't understand. what did we ever do to them. whatever!! i did the opposite with my boyfriend. one of my friends was like i think you should spend more time with your boy. i was scared i was going to turn into one of those types of couples that were attached at the hip. i'm glad we didn't.

ugh...and they are also always making out and walking at the same time! ok pda please! alrite a little peck is cool, holding hands, hugs, perfectly fine. but shoving tongues in eachothers mouths and sucking face, is for when your in privacy. please spare us! really i don't need to see you guys swap spit. especially when you can't avoid it cuz you see them everywhere you go! arg...

ok almost done...

so there is a senior trip that they are both going on, and she thinks that they will be able to room together! ahahaha...ok....sure...right...whatever... i was talking with one of his friends and she's planning on taking advantage of him! poor guy. i know its okay, but please be careful, i don't think he's ready for that! i think she wants to take his big V is because its something no one else can have except for her. and she wants to prove that he is hers. she is going to the college he was thinking about so they can go together, but he got a great offer to another school in oregon. so i think she might be using sex to keep him near her.

i know, i know, but what other reasons could there be? so yea there's my rant...just had to let it out.

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i don't understand why..
Listening to: kMeL
Feeling: awkward

soooooo....

why is it that i'm am still civil towards the guy that cheated on my friend 4 out of the 7 months they went out. he denied it, but i witnessed it. i really don't know. i shouldn't be nice to him, but we go back. we've been friends for like 6 years now, and i can't really make myself not like him. he is a really nice guy, besides the fact he cheated on my friend. really friendly, caring, and easy to talk to. Even back in middle school we had crushes on eachother. hahaha...wow...those days...soooo long ago! i can't wait to graduate!!! ahhh!!!! hahahaha...can't wait....well back to studying for ap calc! its almost over...sooooo close!

26 days till my baby comes home to me!

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blah blah
Listening to: jack johnson-bubble toes

hmmm....so i went on xanga for the first time in ages today! hahaha...its kinda funny reading everything that i wrote last year. sooo much has changed. its crazy, and graduation is a month and a half away. i really can't wait. i know it will be sad, but i just can't wait!!!!!! but lovely calculus is ruining it for now....grrrr...i can't wait till that stupid class is over. the thing is i'll be taking it all through college. oh well...thats just the way it is...and i know life will probably be better in 2 weeks.

running shoes....hmmm...gotta find some. i'm gonna make adrien whoop me into shape. hahahaha...it'll be fun.

well gotta get my money to buy my prom tickets. yay! prom..its gonna be great.

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you know whats cool...
Listening to: E 40
Feeling: sorry
me! hahahahahaha well i've been thinking bout it and i really can't wait to go to college next fall. i'm so excited to go to UCI. its such an awesome school and i know i'm gonna love it down there. going down there with brett is gonna be great. we are both gonna be in almost the same types of classes, and it'll be nice having a familiar face in somewhere that is totally foreign to you. we are planning on long board skateboarding around campus together when we get bored. its gonna be soooooooo great! and the rec center is brand new and free to students, so i'll definitely be hitting that up. i'm determined to stay in shape! i swear! i was told i shouldn't go for a full course load first quarter, but whatever, i'm gonna do it. maybe once i get used to it, i'll get a job. i'm gonna need the mula. everything is gonna be hella expensive. especially plane tickets! i'm gonna be flying home and then a couple weekends i'll be flying out to naptown to visit the boy! it'll be so much easier because i'm not gonna need parental permission. i can just go! i'm happy because i'm planning on going for his birthday. the big 21! hahahaha...it'll be fun. and i have a place to stay which is cool. so i won't be spending tooo much money. i can't wait any longer! graduation plese come just a bit faster!!!!!! 31 days till he comes home! You scored as Athletic Tomboy.

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wow
Listening to: kMeL
Feeling: amused

wow...haven't updated in awhile. well i guess there really isn't much to update on. me and adrien were close to breaking up one nite, but there is soooo much on that topic that i don't really want to start. softballs been good. we've been winning, so its not that bad. i really can't push myself in that sport anymore. its weird. maybe i should focus, but i really don't know what it is. damn only 8 days till the ap calc test FCUK! hahahaha...yea well back to lovely physics. yay!

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hmm....
wow its been awhile...
sometimes i wish....
oh what fun...
stupid boyfriend
girls....(warning: its a...
i don't understand why..
blah blah
you know whats cool...
wow
Physics fun!
because i'm cool like that
awww...<3
grrr....
happy happy
yea...
lovely
I love... PART II
happy day!
yeya!!
nice....
i know...
arghh...
MEEE!!!
woohoo!
damn it to hell!!!
yes!
college yet again
love
a lil about me...
want to start over
its getting to me...
i love...
i don't know
hate being a quitter
i wanna leave, but yet i don't
college and relationships
okay
wow how much do i hate this
ewww VDAY!
hmm....
Bullshit!
hahaha
OVERLOAD!!!!
Oh really
I think...
AHHHH!!!!!
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Not happy
I'm in love with someone so...
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