Um...I don't know what good this will do making this private since only i can read it but oh well. I've been cheating on Sean. I never wanted the relationship to last more than a month. He doesn't know. its almost been three years. I dont love him, i've never have. I dont know why im still with him.. I think its just because he gives really good sex. but i havent gotten that from him in a while. i dont feel bad about calling off all of our plans.Im too good for him.. yeah i am wayy to good for him and i don't see why i was with him in the first place. He in no way deserves me. Hes probablt sleeping with freaking Amber anyways. I mean yeah shes hot but shes my best friend. I'm beginning to think I am too good for her too. I'm hotter then her. I'm way better. Fuck! I'm better then both of them! Let them fuck eachother I don't care! ha!! i can get better best friends anyways. Ones that will pleasure me when I ask. She would never. Niether would Sean. I'm sick of this. I'm glad its over between me and Sean. Mark gives better sex anyways. Boy does he. Wooootness! Yes Mark is who I am cheating on Sean with and hes so damn fine and has a big you know what!! haha!!!!! I'm so hot. I'm going to go and feel good about myself. I hope Amber will pleasure me!! If not.. AHH