.....This is all so confusing. Everything in general, you go by..day by day and the older you get still nothing makes any sense. I know I still have alot of growing to do, and alot of things to learn...but its very frustrating that the more you try to find answers the more questions you get. I think im catching a cold and that is soooooooo gross. soooo sooo gross I don't get sick often...well..except in the winter because I don't wear coats...heh.. but..yea...I'm at my sisters house right now. I love this place. It's my escape from that hell hole I choose to call a home. My parents are getting more serious about the move. which is good...but they are thinking of moving out of state. If they do I dont want to go with them Ill see if I can live with my sister. umm...yea...but enough of that. I really don't have much to write about right now. .....my mind is so messed up right now I can't think clearly. so..I think I will...go read. almost done with my book. yessss...finally haha. anyway...yea...i'm gone... in more ways than one.....