Not much has changed with me. Still completely misinterpreted by everyone around me, and my mother has even possibly gone even more so off the deep end. I'm just waiting for her to try to kill herself with Vitamin C pills again. LOL. School is ridiculous...Since when has ANYONE heard of learning bible verses in a GOVERNMENT class. honestly. The whole book is based on the biased opinions of these christian tyrants. I've learned two things in this class: 1. Apparently 'God' is the governement and is the only aspect that it holds, when wanting to learn anything...Go to that. 2: My school in even shittier that I assumed. Public school [ although I fear it greatly ] is the only way for me to actually learn anything..I've heard Thornton is one of the best schools in Maine anyhow. Silly really, 8 years wasted on this place...and now I'm terrified of going anywhere else. This school has twisted me, contorted my own new-birthed beliefs and now I'm sick of it.. But because of it, it halters my path to a new beginning. I don't even know where to start. My social skills are shit. I've never really liked people, but...It's never been THIS bad. LOL But, I'll deal. That's the way it is...What life is about to me. Dealing.. Doesn't mean you have to go down without a fight though....otherwise life would be dull and unsuspenseful. And that's even more terrifying than the concept of a public school to me.. I'm a type of person that needs change...Growth. Anyone sense future long term relationship problems?! lol But now...There is a difference between growth and security to me.. I need a little security these days. People are too flexible...Unrealible...Maybe in tying someone into that contract of a relationship they change... I highly doubt it though... I really need to stop over analyzing things... It just makes me babble.