...Wow,long time no write,eh? well heres a sneak peak into my life right now.( not that anyone will actually read this and care...) ...I am..an complete wreck. ..Right now I am more stressed,broken,confused....exhausted...than I have ever been. I have so much pressure to be something I am not. I'm not allowed to be my own person...It's driving me crazy. and..my family...damn... The thoughts...they are driving me crazy, It's like i'm having a constant battle with my mind. I just can't take it anymore... and..my father is getting out of prison..and...we may have to move...my mother is apparently depressed...I am not completely in the right state of mind right now....my sister is stressed out..kate is trying to help, but its really making things alot worse. The point isnt that I want people to tell me it will be ok. I can't stand that. I just need someone to listen...maybe nod every once in a while.. I..don't know...things right now are just...bad. And believe me...I am not a fan of..being weak..it's repulsive to me. and ontop of everything..my body..is breaking down. I keep getting sick, I feel so weak..people tell me i'm not eating enough, but i'm not hungry...I can't concentrate...It's like everyday is a task. Sometimes I just want the day to be over so that I can sleep. and yet that doesnt really work since I have so much homework that I stay up into the wee hours of the night finishing it.. I can't take it right now. I desperately need a break. I'm about to implode. A nervous breakdown is coming up. it's unavoidable...damnit