you know what i really really hate? people who screw up other people's lives cause they hate their own. honestly. i'm too nice for my own good. people walk all over me and i sit back and do nothing. i hate myself. i think it all branches from my self-esteem. my self-esteem is about half an inch tall. i know i need to do something about this but its so hard to think that i'm the least bit worthwhile between the dirty looks i get at school and my parents telling me i'm worthless at home. i'm so stuck in hating myself & my low self-esteem that i don't even enjoy anything anymore. i miss myself. alanna's myspace used to say "i miss myself" and "i have no confidence or self esteem whatsoever" and basically, everytime she changed her info, i loved her a little more and more because she knew how to say exactly how i felt. i just want to sleep and have my life fix itself when i wake up. i'm so tired of trying. i have nothing to look forward to. i'm waiting for things to look up. /love.