things are decent right now. tom is being an idiot and won't leave me alone. what do you do when people ask you why you broke up with them? uh. i grew up. i realized i WASN'T in love. you become a an even bigger idiot than before. i changed for the better and you, for the worse. how do you POSSIBLY sugarcoat that? you can't. so excuse me for sounding like a bitch. me and lawrence haven't talked in a while, but whatever. his friend levi is started talking to me on myspace, i don't think he likes me very much. that's okay... i guess i don't like him very much either. on a happier (maybe?) note, i'm od-ing on damien rice. i listened to the blower's daughter for the first time in quite a while and i started shaking, then the while listening to it a second time, i started crying a little. i don't know why, i seriously don't. but i felt really cold. and volcano is amazing. lubbock this weekend. +some muchneeded shopping. i'm hoping to find an oldschool polaroid camera, the O album, and hopefully some flats that don't suck. oh, and a hoodie. i look idiotic with the jacket i have, apparentally i had a recent growth spurt. hmph.