Imaginary Illusions

Listening to: Evanescence-Imaginary
Feeling: defeated
Ok, I give up. I cannot tune my guitar to save my life!!! I finally asked Mr. Nolan(The High school band teacher) to help me. After he showed me, I was kicking myself, It couldn't be any easier!!! I just can't wait to start writing my own songs!!! I'm so excited!!! here's the song for the day: Imaginary by Evanescence ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming Cannot cease for the fear of silent night Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming The Goddess of imaginary light In my field of paper flowers And candy clouds of lullaby I lie inside myself for hours And watch my purple sky fly over me I linger in the doorway Of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name Let me stay where the wind will whisper to me Where the raindrops, as they're falling, tell a story If you need to leave the world you live in Lay your head down and stay awhile Though you may not remember dreaming Something waits for you to breathe again ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I don't know what's come over me, but I've felt really depressed these past few weeks. I just don't know what to think, I just don't know what to do. My life is kinda in the trash right now. I feel like someone tore out my heart and replacd it with a lump of coal. but...I know it will result in happiness, it always does. and I've been meeting new people, so I'm not as depressed =P.(ooh, these would make great song lyrics!!!) You know that song by Evanescence, its called Imaginary, and she talks about paper flowers. well, I've kinda started drawning paper flowers when I feel depressed, and then I hang them on my wall. While I draw, it just gives me time to think things over. They've turned out beautifully, I wish I could show you. So far I have three parts of a vine, I'm making a vine with blossoming flowers on them, its really soothing. I think I'll paint them on my wall when I redo my room.
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i so didnt mean it like that its just i love my bf and i dont want to do something to hurt him or hurt me because of hurting him but we can still talk to each other!!!! god i am so srry about my entry i didnt mean it like that
cool, I'm from North Texas...near Dallas, a city called Denton. It's a shithole lol. Sorry to hear you're depressed, I can understand where you're coming from. Life is such a bitch sometimes. But keep your head up, things will get better.
I wouldn't say that if I didn't mean it. Things sucked for me but then just within the last few months they've gotten better...just when I was about to give up everything changed, so like I said just hang in there. You'll be happy. I don't think everyone is meant to be depressed forever.
I like your entry with my username :)

I kind of have some of the same careers in mind, I'd love to go to culinary school, and I have actually thought about doing interior design. I'll probably do social working and be a child's advocate or something.

well have an awesome day :)