I had this dream..Basically like it was the people I knew in my life and they were all like a in a fucked up version of Battle Royale. They were killing one another with guns knives whatever. I was just watching this, it felt surreal, like the people I knew in my life were interacting in the most violent ways. And every time one of them died my memory of them I could feel fading away. I don't know what any of that means. But it was a small amount of people. I don't make it a point to be social. And the people I do know I do talk to them. But even shorter is the list of people I actually trust. Just makes me wonder what it means...I still think of her a lot. It is funny how I lose weight when I'm not with her. But she said it herself no matter what I do it's over. I am accepting that more and more inside. But on the outside everyone thinks I am over her cause I don't talk abot her anymore. Despite her ripping up my letters, I still have hers. I don't make it a point to read them much but I do like knowing I simply just have them there. I know cause of that it makes it harder to let go. But when I do it will be completely.