So I just told my new boyfriend about this site, and how I used to write things on here and store lyrics. I'm writing this so that if he ever reads all the crazy rantings of my past relationships he will know that he is more important than them. I love you steve :) oh and i'm skiing in colorado and am having soo much fun, but i miss you!

passed the road test!!! so now i can drive myself places which is cool

I started to ache when I started to think of you. Wondering how long it would take before I step into something new. There's only so much I can fake. There's only so much that I can prove. Well, do it in a minute, I could go play the fool for you. Lights, camera, action. I think I'm going for it this time. There's something you should listen to. Could I take you for a car ride? This is the soundtrack for our movie. Would you tell me when we get to the best part? I'll play it for you. Oh no, I think I've lost this one. Can we try again? Well I'm a wreck. I really can't explain it but I, I hear the music when I look at you. Orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment. Well, I'm so in love with you. Are you looking for an answer? Because I could really use a friend tonight. We can make this last forever. We don't have to fear the sunlight. I'll take a chance and steal away this movie moment. I'm in deep whenever I'm with you. I'm directing the scene that has you and me forever. We'll I'm so in love with...

field hockey has officially taken up the majority of my time..but its okay bc i made varsity which i wasnt sure I would, and i think my skills are improving and emily has been helping me out alot which is good..bc shes wicked awsome at fh. so no work today which is awsome..and i might hang out with laura later tonite..which would be allrite. Oh and this saturday im going to the M-e vs. JC game bc 2 kids that i work with ALL the time are on the Jc soccer team and i wanna see them get crushed by us!! butyeah time to go bye

life is good...today was the 5K then lauren, amanda,steph,sara,maura,KK,bush twins, and coach doyle,& conroy up to my lake, and we played around in the water and on all the boats...and it was a good time. Then i went over to lauras with flash, and we had a bonfire and they are my 2 best friends and i heart them. we were thinking of names to call ourselves and we came up with lerala. Le for me(leigh) ra for rachel and la for laura. and we have different colors for each of us.

so i have field hockey for 5 hours..then i go to work for 6...this will be my 4th day in a row doing this. i am mentally and physically drained

so everything is going really good for me right now. Field hockey's good...my math regents today was easy as hell. So hopefully for fh..i make varsity,if i dont i'll feel like a wicked big loser. we find out tommorow. but i mean im in great shape..and i've been 'busting my balls'..so we'll see wut happens. and hopefully i will get a good grade on my math. so ya..end of story oh and someone deleted all my friends on this site..wicked cool

mack died..he's dead. He got killed in a car accident last nite..he was in the car with some girl he didnt really kno and she went to fast..and he was killed instantly. Mack lived in Ithaca his last name was zaharis, and he is one of my childhood friends..who we would go visit sometimes up there, and go to cayuga and stuff. he was a great guy, and its really sad because he was only 16. Its just not fair at all. he was the boy that taught me how to spit watermelon seeds out thru my tongue. he was really cute too, and i always had a little kid crush on him, but now he's gone and i am very sad, and i can't even imagine losing a child, or a sibling. And it makes me scared of being killed in a car accident, everytime i will step in the car with a teenage driver, its just a verrryyy sad day.

so i just got back from the most amazing trip ever to europe. I had a blast..i wish i could live there rather than this boring town. it was good to see my familia. Sleeping in my own bed was the best thing ever.

so i'm leaving today and im really excited. I'm arriving in germany actually tommorow, bc of that dateline thingy, and then the next day were leaving for ireland for 8 days, and were going canoeing on some cool river and were seeing the ring of keri. Then were coming back to where they live, and seeing all kinds of castles and whatnot and going to see a french town bc they're near the border. paris is liek 3 hrs away from there house so maybe i can go see it. I reallllllly want to. So bye

flash slept over last night..which was good then we went to the mall with laura and we saw megan v, meghan l, and michelle l there. That was a good time then we dropped flash off at a graduation party..then i looked at stuff about dublin and ireland because im going there and germany.

SChool is finallllyy over!!! so yesterday i had my meeting with ms. doyle, and she basically said that i had to be really in shape and get my stickwork skills up to beable to make varsity, and that preseason would be a tryout for me, and that im basically competing with a couple other girls for a varsity spot. I would be really mad if i was on varsity as a junior for field hockey, and was on varsity for lax as a softmore. Oh well... i just have to get wicked in shape, and try realllyy hard in preseason, and make it. Oh and get alot out of princeton. -chem regents was easy, but its one of those tests that you think are easy but then u get alot of dumb stuff wrong. I did super good on the math final!! :) so i have a lax summer league game to day, and im gonna go amazing so even if i dont make varsity fh i'll start for lax next year.

good weekend..kelly and emma were here which was fun..we went mini golfing. I'm sooo bad. Well i lost the vice president elections..which i knew i would oh well. So this weekend i applied to a million places. well 5. Eckerds, american eagle, aeropostale, pac sun, and Nezuntos.. how ever u spell that. Eckerds said they prolly werent hiring because people are coming back from college, american eagle is hiring, and maybe aero is, and Nezuntos might hire me, but they said i might have to work in binghamton..which would kinda suck. Anyways it would be wicked sweet to work at american eagle, because i would buy a ton of clothes on sale, and prolly spend the majority of my money on clothes which is wut i would do if i worked somewhere else anyways. Any nexuntos and eckerds would be good because they are close to me.

so today was a good day...i got accepted into Z-Club..which i think everyone who applies to gets in but anyways, i get inducted into the club on june 1st i think..sounds kindof cultish. Also i am the new president of international club, and laura is the vice president and rachel is the secretary..which is what i was this year, and John Highland is the Treaseur. It should be fun, i dont really know this john kid but anyways it should be fun. Rachel owes me big time haha. neways i got this award printed thing out and it made me feel wicked cool..not really but there are these 2 girls in the club who ran for officer positions..and they help out in the club alot but they are kinda losers and they didnt win wut they ran for, so mrs helenski felt really bad so we gave them both a PR position whihc is kinda ironic because PR position os for someone who is not a loser and can get people involved..aka Public relations. Oh well i hope the one girl wont go power crazy on me...but she is leaving half way thru the year so another one of her loser friends suggested that she be president for the 1st half of the year, and me for the 2nd and i was like hmm how about NO.and we are finding out tommorow who won in the class elections..i ran for Vice President against stef K, felicia L, and tricia D. That is pretty tough compotition, and i'll prolly lose but hey what can you do :/, i have a short practice from 3- 4:30, and need to exchange my ring for a differnt sapphire for one. ITS SO PRETTY. the one i have now is pretty but, it itches my hand. THEN KELLY IS COMING..and then im having a couple kids out to the lake for my birthday. OH and we won our game against owego, 16-2.. and i got a yellow card. Yeah so it was a party and i got to play for almost a full half, only with the break of my penalty. and 27 seconds of the 1st half..lol YES. But seriosuly though, i dont mind that i dont start, because i get to play enough, and being on varsity, and practicing at that level has made me better i think. So after the game we went to wegmans and i had soup for dinner, then we went to alot of stores and looked at sapphires. I still like the one i saw yesterday at bonton. Well i happy to be alive rite now, and things are going good, pretty much, excpet that im nervous about my french speaking regents. Everything seems to be going my way today. : )

so i got my permit today..i got 3 questions wrong..lol thatts okay. i passed, so yeah i drove to practice in my dads automatic..and it went allrite, except when i almost hit a stationary car, but then after practice i tryed on my moms standard..and i like forgot all the basics that she had told me, and i she freeaked out, but hey whatever.

AH friggen life is a pain in my butt. At our lacrosse game today i scored 2 goals, but the score was 15-3 and i scored the last 2. I didnt hear ne1 say that we werent supposed to score and the coach yelled at me and when i said sorry she was like dont say sorry to me, say sorry to the other team. And that it was unsportmanship like.

Ya i have not written in this in forever, ya i got my psat scores today and i blew ass but hey iTS OKK, ya and i was supposed to have a race this weekend, and get to miss monday and tuesday of school but NO it rained, and rained. But it snowed a little today and i was happy. And the word audacious, i have no idea what it means. But ya the only reason i have this thingy is to store lyrics soooooo here are some from Billy talent My head, it hurts Each day it's getting worse My looks and smile Have now become my curse Tight lips, red skirt The neverending street Big car, little man My lover for a fee ^^i like those I'm used to making it worse Made up of four letter words You wanna know what it was Now isolated and gone You fall apart at the seams I'll never know what it means Try not to pull it apart Your aiming straight from the heart Drink up all my alcohol This is not a free for all I'll be there for you 'Til my heart is black and blue

People who leave anomomus commentts are LAME *The stars, they lay across the sky so perfectly They remind me of All the times, when we used to sit underneath them, those summer nights And fall in love *Your false intentions have warn thin But we've been in your room and in your closet too We've got one on you * So close your eyes and sleep to dream. I'm by your side. No words to speak. We'll set our course and make it through. No matter how far I go my heart remains with you. * Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth It seems I do more harm than good And I don't know if it's worth me loosing sleep over this So take take everything and leave me scrambling Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place * if i had it my way, i'd turn the car around and runaway, just you and i. *I hope you choke on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me. And realize how many times I've tried, but that's wishful thinking. All I want is an apology for what you did and how you treated me. Get me far away, or at least as far as this car will take me. Tell all your friends about me. *you're down for selling me out while i play dumb, but it's cool because i let you, you thought i'd never catch you, you said "we're only friends." yeah, real good friends, i bet. i bet. * You're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked.

Tonight is all about "We miss you" (We miss you, We miss you, We miss you) Tonight is all about "We miss you" And I can't forget your style or your cynicism, somehow it was like you were the first to listen to everything we said. My smile's an open wound without you...and my hands are tied to pages inked to bring you back. Tonight the headphones will deliver you the words that I can't say.

I picked the nicest lawn and imagined the two of us rolling around down along the ground. I saw myself touch your face and I noticed jets begin to race above our heads. But I pinched my arm and remembered how much you hate me. I remembered the fact that I can't see what you need and I'm too stupid to be aware of the beauty that you give this place and how shitty this town would seem without you in it. When you aren't around I let the shades fall down to shut out all the sun's light and make myself feel all right. Oh my god, I look pathetic tonight Well, guess what I'm diving in this river And I'm fishing out my heart And I'm never gonna let you get your hands on this again.