I picked the nicest lawn and imagined the two of us rolling around down along the ground. I saw myself touch your face and I noticed jets begin to race above our heads. But I pinched my arm and remembered how much you hate me. I remembered the fact that I can't see what you need and I'm too stupid to be aware of the beauty that you give this place and how shitty this town would seem without you in it. When you aren't around I let the shades fall down to shut out all the sun's light and make myself feel all right. Oh my god, I look pathetic tonight Well, guess what I'm diving in this river And I'm fishing out my heart And I'm never gonna let you get your hands on this again.