Ones I love

by lempy
Feeling: confused
Lately Ive been making a lot of bad decisions. "I did what I had to do" I said. Too me it was the right decision and now im back where i belong, but i found it to be very different than before. The ones I love greet me with clenched fists rather than open arms. The torment my heart goes through day by day at the thought of my friends' hate towards me is too much too bear. I thought its what they wanted, for me to come back home? Now im not so sure what to think anymore. After hearing what you had to say it left me so empty and worthless . Even though my life is getting back on track its always the ones I love that I put first. So if they ever read this I want them too know that even though they might hate me I could never hate them. We've been too close of friends too throw everything aside like nothing. I will always be there for the ones I love.
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- as Veronica goes, she must not have faith in you r at this moment in time.I'm sure she's not purposely trying to dog on you or shit like that.She was talking to me and was saying like how she just wished you could staighten up your life just some.As you know, she hates that pot and all.So man, now is your chance to go out there and show your family and friends what you can do with your life.Hope you kick ass.See ya Sat.
Hi-Pinky
- been through a lot of shit and have managed to overcome all of it. It just takes some time dude. That's a lot of "dudes" by the way isn't it? SoRrY!! I'm not quite sure completely how Veronica feels about you right now, but surprisingly enough she also was eager to see you again after many months. No matter what happens to you or us, I'm almost positive you will always be a part of your friends-you have left an impact on all of us. As far-
Dude, not that many people hate you. And for the record actually, no one hates you, just dislikes you. Sure you did some weird freaky shit in Arkansas, but what would Cresten or Ryan do in that position- probably the same thing. But seriously, no one hates you, especially me. Its just that me and everyone else don't think its cool when you brag about all that shit you did. Oh and dude, I love you as a friend(heterosexually of course.) We've each-
dear jacob.
dear dear jacob.
i never hated you. never have.
i hated what you were doing.
to yourself and to us.
we're trying to fix ourselves.
somehow some way.
i dont really know what to say to that. sides that im a little teary eyed.
but really you have this grand view of pot and drugs.
dude. theyre not all so great.
i lived with a dad on shit stronger than cocaine half the time and my brother died because of it.
i just dont want you to take it the wong way, but im not gonna let you talk about pot and shit around me. especally with cresten trying to get himself straightened out. hes been so much better since he quit it. i love him more than ever. hes smarter and more thoughtful too.
i dunno things changed after you left, and i dont know if they can be put back the same
ever.
but really i do love you too
even if i seem like i dont
so dont forget that.