Forget to Remember

Listening to: Mars Volta- The Widow
Feeling: crestfallen
What have I done? Where have I come from? When I burnt the backs with the sun through a glass did I seal the loss that's become me? Feeling undone What have I become? When I turned my back on you I turned my back on myself and became this machine Thoughtlessness Selfishness Hopelessness Arrogant I feel it on the inside Twisting and contorting Memory has shaped me once again Still feel you on the inside Biting through and stinging Will I ever forget to remember? Shadows in the sun Filter through us Still wrestle the demons that arrested me as a child Confession rejected We grow up To give up People step on the cracks for wounds owed paid back Through the words of surrender Emptiness Loneliness Listlessness Worthless I feel it on the inside Twisting and contorting Memory has shaped me once again Still feel you on the inside Biting through and stinging Will I ever forget to remember? Can you save me? From myself From these memories Can you save me? From myself From these memories Surrender To the shadows Haunting inside Bleed through you Surrender to the secretes...inside Lies within you I feel it on the inside Twisting and contorting Memory has shaped me once again Still feel you on the inside Biting through and stinging Will I ever forget to remember? Can't feel you on the inside Set down the bag and left it Lost memory has left me One again Open up the inside Admission for the cleansing Now that I've forgotten to remember Surrender To the shadows Haunting inside Bleed through you -Mudvayne-
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Lempy, its pat, psyco pat. aha thats right. yeah well, i'm a dumbass and didn't even read the entry so....peace out
[Anonymous]
hey
nah i dont get it as often as you'd think lol.
pink floyd is great, and yeah, even better with shrooms and acid. but the music is trippy anyway =)
yeah i know..


i hate myself right now.


i hate everything

im sorry i get pissed so easily now.


i dont know whats wrong with me.



i just cry so much.

i cant stop it.... and stuff...


i just... need to know the truth about a lot of shit.

im so TIRED of being lied to.

really.

its just wearing me down.

i just cant handle anymore.
if something isnt done soon.. im gonna get into some bad shit, lemp.

yeah.
hahahahhahahahahahahhahahhaha.



ahahah.


really?

oh god. a few friends. yeah a lot of aquaintences. but a group of a few closely knit people. thats my friends.

no. jacob. i know all that. i am happy for that shit. cuz at one time i never had any of that. you forget i lived in that trailer park too. with a crack addict dad. i know what life can throw.
its just. love from friends... is friendly love.
and cresten's love is... well yeah!
but. its hard. im not accepted by my mom. she never... shes......

i cant... shes just crazy. that hurts a lot.

i deal with depression really bad. the same as a lot of you guys.
just cuz i got all this shit doesnt mean im happy.
i mean...
i gues i dont know what i mean.


actually my friends have a lot to do with it all.

theyre all on drugs.
haha. the college thing isnt sure.

and success?

only because i have to.
to keep mom from beating me up over a B in band.

haha. that day sucked.

but.
i think its more of the fact that all those i love have so many problems i cant fix.

thats what really hurts.

i dunno. i need to chill though. thats all. blah.

my friend made me this green tea with nutmeg stuff.

its great.

really relaxing.

haha
yeah.