i haven't spilled my guts out on here for awhile and i guess it's because i haven't had much to say and maybe that hasn't changed but i feel like i need a good lashing out to. i feel a depressed stage coming again. i can feel it. im getting monster migranes every day and i feel soooo un happy. no matter what i do i can't hide from it. i don't know what i need to do to get outta this. maybe its stress from taking one to many classes and still fitting in work and a personal life. im trying to stay postitive and get my mind busy on things i need to do.. like get into shape, pay my bills and do my freaking homework. no to mention this friday im getting my wisdom teeth taken out on my right side and then in a few weeks the other side. oh and not to mention a cavity turned possibly root canal is scaring me. i have a month and half before that's a sure thing. oh gah teeth. and i brush them and brush them and i still get this crap. i want to feel butterflies in my stomach. i want that rush again. being IN love. like theres a difference. yah i think so. haha im listening to a radio station in tokyo. so awesome i wish i understood what is being said. i saw constantine on friday. it was pretty good. i just think its funny that the guy who messes things up is a mexican and the devils son is named Mammon. ahahaha. spanish is great. ahhhhhhh. i think i need some time. i want to start a band and i will name it Skyline Drive. Dibbs!!! its mine all mine. ahahahahhahaha :evil laugh: hahahahahahah **************** Skyline Drive: sitting starting out that window watching the lines fly by and the trees become one massive thing. the skyline sits so beautifully amongst the dying sun, thinking of nothing dreams and feelin those nothing things; that darkness comes creeping in underneath the cold air setting in and lights flash randomly against the road, blinding the reality sets back in. do you care that im still falling down? has forgiveness given up; for what that can never be known. now those stars are tellin lies futures filled with hope in disguise, i sway back to that life with solid ground . i still saddened by the awful truth loneliness gets the best of you. the lines that define my way have slowly faded loveliness