i feel like i shouldnt even be here.. like all i do is fuck people over. Thats all im good at. Is Fuckin Up.. Well i guess if people could acctually see who i really em.. maybe they will have seconds thoughts about me. Maybe not. Fuckers. I seriouslly think if i left like NY people would be like.. omg hes gone.. for a few days. But after that.. they wont even remember my face. Shit Happens. if i could keep a gf.. for longer then 1 month... that would also be fuckin great. ya know.. yeah i miss some people.. n jus think about others.. Awsum Shit. if someone threatened ta kill me.. id laugh n say.. go for it. Jus ta see if they had enough balls. Fuck people i guess.. prolly jus fuck girls.. cuz i cant keep one. Just a Fuck Up.. Thats All.. Thats It. Ya know.. if i could have a gf for longer then like 5 months.. then i would prolly stop callin myself a fuck up er a bad bf.. maybe 3 months not 5. This fuckin sucks.. i hate fuckin up.. its all i ever do.. Maybe i should stay alone.. with out people... i jus bring em all down.. maybe i should jus isolate myself.. fuck everyone else.. i dun wnana hurt anyone any more. Kill me.. so people dont hafta deal with my shittt.. Jus wish... That i wouldn't be such a fuck up.. To ruin peoples lives.. I try ta climb to the top n make people happy.. But i end up hittin' rock bottem all over again.. That is my life.. Sorry For Fuckin' Your Future Up..