I don’t wanna lose Tara; she's all I think about any more, I just wish we would stop arguing over stupid shit. I mean I know that we both just get over it right after, I just don’t want it to become this huge thing were we break up. I love being with her, she makes me so happy, she’s so adorable, I just don’t want her to be so mad/upset. I want her to be happy that’s it; I want her to come to me with everything/anything. I wanna talk to her about it all, I wanna love her, I know I don’t yet, but when its time ill know. New Song: Matchbook Romance - Monsters Lately I have also noticed that she's been really bothered by something, and I wish she would talk to me about it, i'm hear to listen to her, I’m here for her. I want us to be alright 100% of the time, I know were like 95% alright most of the time, but that other 5 is us arguing and not talking enough. I also think she's always mad at me, and it scares me, it leaves me speechless. New Song: Obie Trice - Snitch I want all of the drama to leave us alone; I want it all too just disappear off the face of the earth. Everything that bothers us should just leave us alone. I can’t lose her, I haven’t been this happy in so long, and I’m afraid that I’m going to lose her. I know when she’s likes "I hate you" or anything else against me, that she’s joking around, but the whole slut/whore thing makes me just wanna shot myself in the face. I regret so much in my life, and she’s making it more difficult. I know she doesn't want me to be a drunk, but I like to drink its fun, and it’s a good way to hang out with your friends, but she makes me feel like shit about it. She thinks I’m like every other guy, that ill like cheat on her or something, but she doesn't know that I’m a happy drunk, not a violent drunk. New Song: Run Kid Run - Move On I honestly don’t care what she does, I trust her with all of my heart, and I wish she would open up to me. God fuck the people that keep causing problems, and talking shit about us. Were both strong and have gone through so much in both of our lives, it’s hard on both of us, but we have to over come it all. We also have different taste in things, like movies and music, which there is no problem, but it seems like we have to be the same to make it. It sucks. New Song: Say Anything - Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too / Little Girls / Most Beautiful Plague / It's A Metaphor Fool Tara Ann Stasko, you’re your so amazing, and I don’t think you know that, you don’t know how beautiful you are or anything. Your so funny and adorable, you always make me laugh and want me coming back for more, not in a sexual way either, just so I can hold you more and not let go. I really wish I could drive so I could see you more, so I could be there when ever you wanted me to be there by your side. I Heart You, and I wanna be with you forever, I don’t ever wanna leave you, and ill never forget about you. And just maybe these few weeks will be hard because we need to get to know each other better, and just test each other to see what we can and can not do. This is a really long entry, and I’m tired, and I’m not making this private like I thought I was going to, so everything that I have said, everyone will know, and if there is any problems, then just fuck off. This is my life, and Tara is now apart of it. I have been sitting here for 30mins typing all of this, so I’m out, good night. 1:04am Tara Ann Stasko, your all mine and ill do anything to make you happy, your all I think and dream about, I don’t ever wanna leave your side. 05/09/06.