and tell me that you're happy now i'm only going to show little segments every now and then. it really isnt my place to show them, but oh well. i dont understand what was going on. he was in love. or he acted like it. and hes a bad liar but he must have been a good actor if he was trying to fool me, because he succeeded. i never fully believed him, never fully trusted him (its normal, with guys and me. i cant take down my walls. it wasnt saying anything against him) but this just proved me right. every guy that i go out with is the same. i dunno..it sounds wya too serious. but don't be mad at me or anything. please. ugh. i dont understanddddd i go to bed and my eyes go straight to his unfinished blanket, the dead rose, the bottle of sand, i smell his cologne. he haunts my thoughts and my dreams. i was stupid. well, maybe i wasnt. if he cares as little as he lets on then i was right to start the break up conversation. me-you are going to be like dang this girl is unsuitable as a wife [this is about the blanket that i never finished] me-because my stitching is like WHOA kind of bad him-wow cuz im gonna judge you as a stitcher him-or whatever thats called me-lol him-lol me-well, i cant cook, sew, iron, or do laundry him-im breakin up with you because you cant sew him-lol me-lol him-yeah right him-well i can him-so you can go out and get a good job me-no, you will just be like "haha i feel sorry for the guy that ends up marrying her" him-and ill do all that him-lol him-ya know what tho, if we do go out for a long time him-and i get outa highschool him-what then? him-cuz you would still be in highschool, and id be like at college maybe him-if things keep goin good him-nevermind, i think that should wait till that happens him-lol him-if it happens him-thats like 3 years away him-lol me-thats true him-(im thinkin too far into the future) yes, you were. was it lies?? hmm... riding in old suvs with boys.