this is fucked, i cant write like i used to be able to its fucking shit. i hope it doesnt last long, i can barely even express my feelings with words any more just actions actions that mean nothign,iv just become this piece of shit, used to have a life things just arent going good at the moment iv lost the only things i once cared about and theres really nothign i can do, its all to complicated, fuck this shit.