i dont have the words to explain my anger and depression right now.... im so pist off... ive had juist about the worst day of my life... my phone just randomly decides to do so my mom gets all pist off becuz my fucking phoen died... i think shes drunk.. but steven.. oh steve...u have it coming mother fucker... i wish u would call my dad an asshole to my face... u need to shut the fuck up before u get beat the fuck up.. my mom got all angered at me becuz she couldnt get ahold of me to bitch at me.. so anyways... my moms gay druggy ass boyfriend decides to pull my friend aside.. make my friend look like an enemy.. and then tell him that my dads an asshole.. i should fucking kill him right now.. the only people that i care about right now are kris and shoobo.. i hope that me and shoobo stay together for a long time.. i dont need another drama in my life.. i dunno wut i would do without my friends... kris shoobo and chrii... they make me feel so much better... expecially shoobo... the other day i was in a really pist off mood cuz of my omom (like always ) and she made me feel better... like always :)... she makes me smile alot.. more than usually.. but n e ways.. back to my angered side... im really confused... and i dunno wut to do.. i wish shoobo or kris was here to help me.... i just feel so stuck in the middle or sumthin.. and i feel like i should do sumthin about this hole incident but if i do then im just gonna get myself put into more trouble... and i would go insane if i had to stay in this house for a longer period of time.. i hate having another authority figure in this house.. e acts like my dad but he will never be anything more to me than anys boyfriend.. im not calling my mom mom n e more cuz she doesnt deserve to have me lable her as sumthin wspecial... shes nothing special.. all she does is give me depression and anger.. and im sry if i take it out on u.. but its bad... she doesnt care about n e thing mroe than her boyfriend and her... she yells at me about the petiest things... if i sneeze in any other manor than perfect... than she will rip my head off.. saying its disrespectful or sumthin.. its pathetic... and he makes me sick.. the way he struts and yells at my brothers and me like he owns us.. like he is a badass or sumthin.. ill lay that mother fucker out...steven is ruining this family.. ripping it to shreds.. it was all fine before he was here.. i wish things were like they used to be.. comment if u would liek.. im out.