so we ended up going to a movie today, stacie, stacy and i. im so happy to see her again. so happy she has no idea. and even the first hug i gave her, i wish she could feel it. we went and saw corpse bride, which i dont know, im not sure if i liked it or not. im really not sure. but then again, i think i watched stacy more than i watched the movie. she'd be mad if she knew that. she never liked it when i stared at all. but that is just something guys do every now and then. the hole time i was sitting next to her, all i wanted to do was grab her hand. then we went to coney, filled with the loud thunderious roar of highschool freshman who thought they where cool because they got to be out so late due to it being homecomeing and all. never wished for more public destrutcion. we got things to eat and then waddled around the parking lot. well not waddle really. just goofed around. i think we did this for a good hour. really, just playing around, to be honest, i found myself just finding any excuse to hold her. she didnt seem to mind. lol. or maybe she didnt notice. they had to go. so i hugged her goodbye, the kind of hug where you let the other person know u care, where you hug someone to tell them i love you. hopefully she got something out of it. something. i loved seeing her again. thinking about it just makes it better. i wish i could just hold her. just give her a day to be loved again. just hold her like i want. i feel so damn affectionate right now. just want to cuddle up and fall asleep u know. but when it comes down to it, its not my choice. my position on things never changed, hers did. it was a fun evening. i needed this evening. tommorow we will hang out again. just her and i i guess, i really dont know what to expect. i miss her, miss her so much. today was good. real good. later