doctor says my knee needs rest and i need to relax it and not be too active. which is going to be almost impossible for me. i hate just laying around. fucking ridiculous. and to add problems to problems danny refuses to let up and leave me alone. he says i have feelings for him and are just too conditioned to not reveal them. convo in short: danny- you love me. me- i dont think so. danny- then why all the time we spent together. me- umm its called sex. danny- i refuse to believe that yadda yadda yadda. me- well believe it. click. goddamn i shouldve know better. he seemed emotional from the beginning. i cant wait for josh to come back into town. at least he can fuck and still act like a straight dude. and not get all damned emotional on me. bleh bleh. i shouldve know better. im not sure but i think my mom thinks somethings up with danny calling all the time. i lost my cellphone so now i have to depend on the home phone which i shouldve never given him the number. god im a moron. eventually all this is going to come crashing in my face and i hope it doesnt happen before graduation. i cant handle that. its hard enough not being sure let alone being half gay and a fucking jock to boot. this may have worked on the o.c. but in this town i dont even want to think about it. shit. i need to get a shower. i smell. -tagger